life.. oh.. life

hay naku buhay nga nmn.. life.. d ko lam kun bkit nagtatype aq ditto.. ang gusto q lang namn eh makapagpalipas ng oras.. sa halip na mag-aral eto aq nag-iinternet.. relaxing?? Cguro.. nagtatangal lang aq ng pressure sa katawan q.. I dnt know but I have thid nervous and pressure na nararamdaman.. hindi q masasabi na pressured aq sa design ksi magagawa q naman un.. titiyagain q.. I mayb pressured ksi aalis na c tatay sa 20.. and he’ll be leaving me with a lot pf responsibilities.. it not that I don’t like responsibilities.. im juz afraid na I can’t do all of it.. nasa  sa konti kong pagpapabaya.. xmpre mabibigo aq.. ang ikinatatakot q eh madisappoint q.. hindi lang cla bka pati sarili q.. ewan q ba.. thinking of all the responsibilities I have.. parang pag nasurpass q lahat un dais q pa c DARNA.. pero sabi nga nung isang kanta.. “hindi aq c darna.. aq ay tao rin na my damdamin at marunong masaktan..” corny noh.. alam ko ung kanta.. pero totoo naman eh.. lahat umaasa skin.. nakakasakit ng ulo sa pagiicp.. hindi na nga gumagana ung motto q na let problem promlem me.. I hope makayanan q lahat toh.. grabe..

hay naku buhay nga namn.. life.. d ko lam kun bkit nagtatype aq dito.. ang gusto q lang namn eh makapagpalipas ng oras.. sa halip na mag-aral eto aq nag-iinternet.. relaxing?? Cguro.. nagtatangal lang aq ng pressure sa katawan q.. I dnt know but I have thid nervous and pressure na nararamdaman.. hindi q masasabi na pressured aq sa design ksi magagawa q naman un.. titiyagain q.. I mayb pressured ksi aalis na c tatay sa 20.. and he’ll be leaving me with a lot pf responsibilities.. it not that I don’t like responsibilities.. im juz afraid na I can’t do all of it.. nasa  sa konti kong pagpapabaya.. xmpre mabibigo aq.. ang ikinatatakot q eh madisappoint q.. hindi lang cla bka pati sarili q.. ewan q ba.. thinking of all the responsibilities I have.. parang pag nasurpass q lahat un dais q pa c DARNA.. pero sabi nga nung isang kanta.. “hindi aq c darna.. aq ay tao rin na my damdamin at marunong masaktan..” corny noh.. alam ko ung kanta.. pero totoo naman eh.. lahat umaasa skin.. nakakasakit ng ulo sa pagiicp.. hindi na nga gumagana ung motto q na let problem promlem me.. I hope makayanana q lahat toh.. grabe.

hehehe

I juz turned 21 last june 28 and I am wondering kung naging mabuti ba aqng anak, kapatid, estudyante at kaibigan.. hehehe 

Masasabi qng 60/40 aq bilang isang anak.. 60 percent na pasaway at 40 percent na masunurin but I cud say na I am still a gud daughter khit napaka pasaway q kasi ok naman ang takbo ng buhay q.. I know wat is wrong and ryt.. I know my priorities.. hindi naman aq nagpapabaya khit minsan tinatamad aq.. hindi pla minsan.. madalas na tinatamad aq.. never naman aq nagpapasakit ng ulo nla.. bulsa lang.. ganun tlga.. kapag nag-aaral.. 

Kapatid?? Ayan jan q masasabi na ok aqng ate.. mejo kunsintidora.. but I never forget to remind my sisters na lahat ng dapat gawing desisyon eh dapat ipagiicpang mabuti.. I always support them and show my care by all our okryan.. I always do that..ksi I am not the showy type eh.. I am sweet kapag tinatarayan, sinusupladahan q cla.. and that’s my character.. I never reveal what I really feels eh.. ita always the opposite eh.. 

Estudyante.. hehehe.. tamad aq.. I know that.. pro khit tamad aq I always make sure na I beat the deadline <ui dalawa design q ngaun kaya BAWAL ANG TATAMADTAMAD>.. I study din naman.. kapag mag-e-exam na.. hehehe.. 

Kaibigan.. ewan q.. pro tru frend daw aq.. 

Well ngaung 21 na aq.. I have to start my lyf different from all the bad habits I have lalo na at ang goal q ngaun ay mas maging successful.. I want my lyf to be stable for my family.. I know I can achieve all those with the help of God and myself.. and also all my inspiration..

hari ng sablay

after a long jogging kaninang morning sa grand stand<on diet kuno aq eh>.. bkit hari ng sablay ang tile ng blog q tonight??? Well ito ung kanta ngaun dito sa comshop eh.. 

 

hai naku.. im coming back nga.. coming back to all my drama evrytime im opening this page.. tama ba un???

 

the lenten had past ng parang ordinaryong araw lang sakin.. and this is the first time na nangyari un na ala tlga aqng ginawa.. no Visita Iglesia.. no station of the cross.. no fasting<fast eating pa ata ginawa q>ala tlga aqng ginawa kundi magbasa.. hindi ng bible nor pasyong mahal.. kundi  ng mga romantic pocketbooks.. kaya nagiging idealistic aq pagdating sa lovelyf q.. becoz im dreaming of a perfect luvstory na alam q namang never na mangyayari tulad ng nababasa q.. i may say i cud have a perfect luv story kun matatagpuan q na un true luv q.. and for now i can say that CEDC <thats his initials i hope u cud keep that secret incase na makilala u na xa>, is juz a gud friend.. i luv him.. no.. rather i loved him?? bkit my question marks? hindi ganun kabilis at hindi ganun kadaling piliting tanggalin o alisin ung nararamdaman mo sa isang tao.. ang sakin lang ksi.. pinagisipan ko mabuti kung anu nga ba.. kung mahal q b tlga xa.. baka nararamdaman q lang na ganun hindi pla..  andun ung confusions eh.. sa tingin q.. im loving him as a friend ngaun.. maybe becoz i realize na iyon tlga or what.. o bka im still in denial ksi ayaw q xa mahalin inspite of what my heart is tryin to tell me.. hindi q alam ksi naguguluhan din aq pro i juz know na he will always be special.. as special as ever.. cguro hindi man maging kasing kilig to the bones ang luvly ko.. khit na maraming beses qng buuin ang broken heart q.. i know samone is out there looking for me the way im looking for him.. wag lang sna xa matagalan.. bka mainip aq.. lalo p nung nalaman q how butz luv me.. kung gaano nya ipinagsigawan how much he luvs me.. eh hindi q parin narinig.. azar db?? nainip kasi aq kaya aun.. lalo p[ang lumala luvlyf q.. kla q magkakaisa na noon.. ang nangyari.. zero prin.. i juz hope na maging hapi ending luv story q.. i know i shud shed tears pro ayoq.. i dnt to be hurt by the one i love ksi lagi nalng ganun eh.. sawa na aq.. bka dumating nlng ung tym na matakot na tlga aqng magmahal.. at bka pagdumating ung tym na un eh saka pa q mahalin nun.. mas azar un.. kasi id be very willling to open my heart and willing to be hurt again.. 

ang gulo q noh..

hai

hay grabe the week that was!!! it was so tensefull as in nakakatense… i thot babagsak aq ng machines pro hindi pla.. grabe.. hai.. 

after that cnabi q na agad kay mami ever na ala aq bagsak and thats for her.. pwamis.. lahat ng ginagawa q for her tlga.. kasi she’s doing everything for us din eh.. d tulad nung isa.. eiw xa.. maging bitter ba?! 

kahit natalo aq sa pustahan na hindi aq nagsasalita ng isang araw aus lang.. ang sakin lang naman is to prove them na i can be quiet noh.. azar lang tlga ung ibang pipol na super judgemental.. aminado aq na i cant control myself not to speak.. wat can i do thats one of my otulet pra mailabas sama ng loob ko.. i dont want pipol see me crying.. kaya nga gladies eh prang gladiest.. from the rootword na glad meaning hapi.. i know naman na not all the time eh masaya ang buhay pro thats how i want my lyf.. kaya nga khit madame prob.. khit gusto q na umiyak.. im proud of myself kasi i still manage to smile.. i still manage to make my lecheng lyf.. a beautiful lyf by mking myself and ader pipol hapi.. kung natutuwa nga sila.. i maybe iritting samtime.. pro i know my limitations.. when to stop namn talking.. 

i am touch nga last time ksi i didnt expect n sa dinadami kong friends… i have few of them na nakakakilala skin.. and my heart was crush wen i found out na ung isang taong itinuturing qng friend eh iba ang pagkakakilala sin.. cguro ayoqng ipakita s lahat yung totoong aq ksi its for them to find out.. 

landi q noh?? ang tanong ganun ba tlga aq?