Emo na naman

Its 10.43 pm here sa office. 1 hour and 17 minutes nlng eh uwian na. kinda weird today kasi parang may hang-over pa ata ako sa 8th world wonder na short story sent by bdet yesterday. Weird but I really feel this sadness inside of me eh.

The story was good. I don’t know if it’s a true story o fiction lang but it keeps me wondering, when will I find my 8th world wonder? What if I found it na, kaso di pala ako ang 8th world wonder nya (ouch!). What if nakita ko na dati but I didn’t know na sya pala ang wonder na yun sa buhay ko? What if I am blinded of what I thought na 8th world wonder ko na eh hindi naman pla (fake na 8th world wonder)? Would I be happy once I found this 8th world wonder na ito? Magiging tulad ba ako nung isang kakilala ko na sabi nya “I found my 8th world wonder, sadly the feeling isn’t mutal”?

Super Emo ako ngaun. Natatawa nga ako, I changed my status sa ym, then dami nag react. Sabi nila inlove daw ako. Ang sabi ko kasi dun is “It’s official, the slave fell in love with her master -from the 8th world wonder”. Yun lang ang dami na nag sabi na I’m in love. Well I’m always in love with love. I’m a damn hopeless romantic waiting to be found by someone and consider me as their 8th world wonder. Hindi ako naiinip, hindi ako naghahanap, hindi din ako naghihintay (hanggang tingin tingin lang ako) at wala ako hinihintay (for the record) minsan lang naiingit ako with other people who found love. Like in the story, this girl unexpectedly falls in love with her master. Nakakatuwa kasi sa story is that these two people enjoy being together na nag aasaran, na nag-aaway, na they enjoy hating each other pero in the end they love each other. They showed they care with each other differently but you know that they are doing it because they care too much for each other.

Minsan nga iniisip ko (eto na naman ako, EMO p*tah!), when will I find him, when will I find this guy who could do wonders sa'kin as a person. The one who can make me smile even my whole world is tearing apart, the guy who would make me feel that I’m secured even just by saying that he will be there (kahit sa text lang), a guy that would hold me like I am very fragile, the guy who would care and understand me during the worst mood that I have (lalo na kapag inatake ako ng kalukahan ko). The guy who can make me shut my mouth if I start to talk to loud, or laugh very loud or start nagging and bragging and all that but still understand me specially when I don’t say anything.

Ganyan ako kademanding kaya cguro wala ako makita. I don’t know, I am not looking kasi I thought I found na, like my dearest friend (alam mu na kung sino ikaw) eh the feeling isn’t mutual. Baka ako lang ang nag-iisip. Gustuhin ko man makinig sa payo ni Ma’am Mannie earlier na I should tell him in order for me to moved on and lived a happy life, I can’t!!!! why? because I know the answer. (The answer is always a no if you didn’t ask) P*tah! San galing un? Minsan kasi you don’t need to ask if you are sensitive enough sa feeling ng taong nakapaligid sa’yo. Parang kapag nakakita ka ng taong naipit ng pintuan sa MRT o sa LRT, it’s a stupid question to ask them kung masakit ba maipit nun. It’s the same way around. Hehehe ganda ng example (parang tanga ako natatawa ako dun sa example ko kasi it really happened, I was in the LRT1 going to Buendia and someone in Vito cruz was I a hurry to ride the train kasi nga maluwag ung train namin, aun naipit, tapos someone ask her, Miss masakit? Hehehe).

Tapos someone ask me again, am I in love? I answered the same na I’m always in love with love. Pero that time naisip ko, kanino naman ako in love? Tangahin din ako eh. We’ll matagal na akong tanga nung na in love ako dun, bakit sino ba may gusto? Wala naman di ba? Kahit ako di ko naman ginusto yun eh, kusa ko na lang naramdaman na meron na pala. Pero ayos lang, im just letting things noh. I am waiting na mawala nalang ung pakiramdam ko na mahal ko sya. Let myself be numb of this feeling gang sa magising ako isang araw na wala na. Sana di na umabot yun ng 5 years, kasi 5 years nalang, magiging desperate na ako to look for someone na makakasama ko habang buhay (hahahaha.. joke lang na half meant.. siguro minus the desperate na maghahanap).

Well I’ll stick with my decision, hintayin mawala ang kung anu mang katangahan na hinayaan ko dito sa puso ko, at the same time look for someone else. Dahil sayang ang time, tanga ko kasi di maka move on. Parang ewan lang ako ngaun, nalulungkot at nag e-emo dahil sa nabasa ko.

Enjoy life, enjoy lang sa katitingin ng mga boylets, more gimiks to come with my good friends na walang lamangan (bwahahaha!!).

Jeff, Hausen, En, Epie, Joy, Ron and ME

Papa Jep, Me, Kuya Ron, Fafa Rey ang Joy

Em, Dana, Ina, Me, Bdet, Henry, Lea, Bi, Oburi, Mhy and JC

Dana, Ina and Bdet

 
Dadating din time ko.. I just know..

8th World Wonder

Each and everyone of us has our own 8th world wonders. They may be in the form of an object, a pet, a place or a person. But the 8th world wonder is commonly said to be a person who gives you an out of this world feeling.

The concept of having an 8th world wonder cannot really be explained by someone. It’s something you have to feel first hand. It is not something that you can learn from books or from the encyclopedias. It’s actually something you learn from yourself and yourself
alone.

We don’t find this 8th world wonder cause it finds us. And as cliché as it may sound, all  we have to do, is really open our eyes to realize that our 8th world wonder, was in front  of us all along. We just can’t see it. Yet,this is the parting words from a very sweet story of a couple who turns out to be mortal enemy, then friends,then super friends then now a happy couple.

This may sound a bit corny or cheesy, but is has full of sense for a hopeless romantic like me who is always inlove with love..

Madalas ko isipin, are these story for real?that it could really happen in real life. na merong happy ending. well di kasi ako naninwala sa to is to believe na phrase pwo ang masasabi ko lang to experience is to believe.. i may not experience this yet.. pwo the best is yet to come..

and now i am wondering, have i found my 8th world wonder?

-got from a short story entitled my 8th world wonder

ang HS life ko na di ko na matandaan ang iba.. :D

my HS life..grabe.. i can't believe that 8 years ago.. i graduated from high school.. na parang i forgot everything i had when i am in high school.. i am focused on how i will have a better life.. well nothing has changed except for the weight gain i guess..

i am still the same old me.. hehe.. nakakatuwa lang na because of FB, eto ako.. reminiscing everything way back 8 to 10 years ago.. well.. mukhang ngang umeedad na ako.. its been a decade na din simula ng tumuntong ako ng HS..

anu nga ba ang lessons learned ko from HS? anu na nga ba ang mga unforgettable experience ko when i am starting to explore the world.. sino ba ako nung HS? anu nga ba pinagkakaabalahan ko noon at ngayon? let see..

Well i am a normal student sa annex (this is how we call CNHS) nung first and second year ako.. i am a simple student na na-o-office (first time ever ata sa sec A na may na office) and take note Principal's office un.. hehe.. nakakahiya but all students, cguro di lang naman ako eh naranasan din bumisuta sa Principal's office.. then i cut classes too.. natutunan ko yan nung second year.. cutting classes going sa isang bahay ng tropa just to play bingo.. or cut classes just to tambay.. that is how my life on my first two years in HS.. s'yempre i met friends habang tinatahak ko ang journey kung itech.. i found real and true friends.. who've been there for me regardless of what happens sa HS life ko..

s'yempre.. puro mali ginagawa ko.. i learned something from it.. when i got my first ever... principal office issue.. i became brave enough to tell my mom what happened.. though nakakahiya in her part.. pwo wala naman ako magagawa.. it happened na.. I'm just young then.. hindi nag-iisip.. i learned to take responsibility on all action na gagawin ko..

as usual, wala naman ako matututunan sa pag cu-cutting classes ko kundi ang pag-start mag-explore ng buhay ko..

when i reach my junior and senior year.. well.. my normal life became a very extraordinary life..

i became a COCC in my junior years.. can't forget all the squats, the push ups and all other training exercises na di ko na kayang gawin ngaun.. i remember na all my friends were styling their hair.. putting make-ups.. lipsticks.. ako naman.. just need to put boknay with 50 pins ata un.. and kung kulang.. squats ang abot ng beauty ko.. i also remembered that all my classmates were having their recess.. ako naman.. dampot ng basura ang ginagawa ko.. we'll sumali ako dunto prove myself na kaya kong panindigan ang mga pinasok ko.. hehehe.. spending time sa CAT.. eh nakameet ako ng mga kaibigan na itinuturing ko na din na pamilya.. sila yung kasa-kasama ko tru thick and thin ba.. hehehe..

while having my training.. sinubukan ko din sumali as writer ng school paper ang kampanang ginto.. hehehehe.. i am really not a good writer.. i know that.. but i enjoyed spending time with all the guys over there.. they thought me things na hindi ko natutunan sa CAT.. :D

JS? well.. not interesting sa'kin ang JS though hindi ako nagbutas ng bangko ika nga.. but i dont find it interesting kasi nga.. basta nakaka-badtrip ang mga pangyayari.. and i've moved on na din.. hehehe..

kalokohan? madami ako nun.. yoko na isaisahin.. nakakahiya na din..

after my COCC life..naging CC life naman ang aking tinahak.. i don't find myself magaling talga.. pwo ako gusto ng fans eh.. so ganun talaga... i know madami pa din cguro ang naghihinanakit skin because of everything i did.. pwo trabaho po lamang walang personalan.. if everyone thinks na I'm terror.. na im suplada.. na im masungit... na walang puso.. na i dont care even mamutla kau sa harap ko basta ang mahalaga eh nagmamartsa kau ng sabay sabay.. hehehe.. sori naman perfectionist ako kahit di ako perfect.. di nyo lang din cguro nakikita mga kalokohan ko sa katawan that time kasi nga my image ako  na pinoproteksyonan (artista?).. na i should be well respected and dapat katakutan para sundin talaga..

dun nga pla sa mga detractors ko.. sorry di talaga kau nagwagi.. hehehe..

habang im CC, i continue to write padin with GoldBell.. write ng kung anik anik.. hehehe.. they made me sports editor though hindi talaga ako sporty.. buti nlng my masipag akong kasama na sports minded..

well.. dami ko na share.. pwo sugar coated na ung iba jan.. hehe.. gang ngaun memory gap ako..

wag nlng siguro kau magtaka kung bakit walang lablyf.. hehehe.

Guys, check this out..

When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how
long you will be around.

When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at all
fine.

When a GIRL stares at you she is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest .. she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL says ' I love you ' .. she means it.

When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' .... no one in this world can miss you more than
that.

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person ....

Find a guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

who calls you back when you hang up on him.

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who ... kisses
your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he
is to have you.

Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

Bow..

-unknown

New Moon

Just finished watching New Moon.. kahit ulit-ulitin ko ito okay na okay talaga... though i would still prefer what is on the book rather than movie.. i guess i'll just wait for the next book.. mas madami kakilig kiligan dun..

May naalala tuloy ako.. parang.. kasi parang tamang tama ang pagkakaulit ng movie na ito eh.. parang ung status message ko..

Sometimes, the things we thought that could make us happy.. that could make our like better.. are the things that gives a hell on our lives.. and it also work on the other way around like we are to choose the wrong things over the right things just to make us happy..

hahaha.. parang ung story, Edward (my lab) choose to leave Bella because he thought it was right, then later on aun.. sila padin.. wait natin Eclipse mas maganda un.. :D.. going back to my thought of happiness..

of chosing what is to be happy and what is just to feel better just to say your happy.. gulo noh.. pwo ganun talaga.. happiness is always there.. jan lang yan sa tabi-tabi.. tau ang naghahanap nun.. at minsan sa sobrang paghahanap.. di p natin nakikita ksi nga we overlook things din..

if we are looking for someone to make us happy, i think the best way is just follow our heart.. because our heart sees what our mind can't.. and our hearts know how to be happy.. even if it is in the wrong way ba.. ganun talaga.. minsan kung anu bawal yun pa masarap..

if we thought that a person could make us happy because we thought that we will be happy again.. maybe.. we need to think again.. kasi if we want to be taken cared of.. dapat pa-confine nlng tau sa home for the aged.. or sa mental.. dun madami magaalaga sa 'tin.. hehehe..

well well well.. as what Bella did, she choose what her heart wants.. and where she finds happiness..