moving on is never in my dictionary..

hay.. eto na naman ako.. falling inlove n naman.. with the same personality in differnt person.. huwaw.. may ganung effect.

akala ganun .. un pla.. i juz miss the person.. tut will always be tut.. i juz missed him so much that i cud even see him in others personality.. no one is the same in this world.. even twins are perfectly different.. so how can i compare..

ok na.. tama na.. bka maluha na naman ako.. basta nag alam ko.. moving on is never in my dictionary.

undecided me..

its been a while.. hindi pla.. mejo mtagal n din pla since i let myself decide for somethings.. madame dami din un.. hinayaan ko sarili ko to decide.. decide for a better me.. o bka hindi din.. ngaun.. i needed guidance.. i needed advice.. i dont know kung kaninu ako dapat maniwala.. kung kanino ako dapat makinig.. o kung dapat ba akong may pakinggang.. i want to achieved things in my life.. madami un.. i dont know where to start.. o dapat ko ba tlga cla simulan.. is it for myself lng ba?? for the people around me?? for the people i consider important in my life.. 

i want to achieved all my dreams for myself, for the people around me, for the people i care about.. for the people who’ve been my greatest inspiration.. for the people who depends on me.. for myself that depends on them..

kinda tiring n din mag-isip.. mag-isip kung panu magsisimula.. kung saan ako dapat magpunta.. hingi ako ng hingi ng sign pwo prang alng dumadating.. baka naman dumating na.. di ko pa napansin.. hay.. paengot engot n naman ako..

sabi ko nga, i have to think positivily passionate to create a life worth living..

i have to commit my self into something i want to have it.. but how can i commit into something if until now.. i do not know what i want.. 

all i know is that i have dreams na nka-hung pdin.. waiting for something or maybe someone to help me start it..

needed a sign… a sign.. a sign.. praying for a sign.. sign.. sign..

huwawwwww

Its January 27, 2008 and im here at suunpower.. infront of the computer.. making petiks.. im 15 minutes late sa work.. pagod pa ko ksi ang layo ng nilakad ko.. iba na tlga ang buhay kapag napasarap ng tulog.. asar.. sa week na to.. I have 3 lates..

Ngaun I should be doing my cost reduction report for tomorrow.. but I still don’t have the mood to do it kya maya nlng.. grabe.. late na nakuha ko pa magfriendster.. no choice la tlga ako gagawin..

Grabe matagl tagal din ako nun huling magpost dito.. mejo nawawalan na anko ng time eh.. may ganung effect..

Sabagay.. ganun tlga ang tao kapag la kaplano plano sa buhay.. me?? Minsan gnun ung naiisip ko…. Ako ung taong alang plano sa buhay.. tipong bahala na.. kung anung meron okey.. pwo Iat the end of the day naiicip ko.. ito b tlga ang gusto?? I have lots of dreams.. I want to be an engineer, have my own house,and car. a good business.. ung sarili kong company.. kakatuwa.. I have big dreams.. pwo hnggang ngaun di koalam kung panu sisimulan… siguro ksi may isang bagay akong hindi nakuha dat hinders me.. yeah.. cguro un nga un.. kung pumasa lng siguro ako.. but I realized na licensed is not that important .. its on how you will achieve and on how you would handle the so called life.. huwat and drama na namn.. I should be happy on what I have right now.. I should be contented..

But why cnt I be satisfied.. why do I long for things.. for those dreams na prang ang hirap ma-achieve.. why do I have this feeling na kya ko i-achieve lhat ng yon.. na konting tiyaga ko pa.. I could have all those.. na kung pagcckapan ko na matupad un.. well im very sure I can do that.. basta may faith lng ako.. and everything will be alright.. mwuaaah!

dreams

haaaaaaayz.. eto ako.. bisibisihan sa work.. pwo khit ganu ako kabusy.. di ko padin nakakalimutan na may pangarap akong dapat tuparin.. im still holding and hoping na one day.. matutupad lahat ng yun.. i know in God’s time dadating din un. i want to take things one at a time.. chill lng.. di akonagmamadali.. i have to be ready.. i need to prepare myself.. for me to be able to accomplish and make my dreams come true.. i know..

IM BAK..

its been a while since i post my senseless comment, suggestions and things in my mind hir.. im kinda busy sa work eh.. kaw ba naman panggabi.. ahehe.. well im enjoying my work right now.. its not just money and work itself tlga.. its about enjoying the things i do and enjoy the company of the people im with.. its learning things from them.. understanding wat real life is.. its not just earning money atthe same time  enjoying the things you do with great pipol.. ok naba english ko? ahehe.. inferness.. natututo na ako.. i remember the other day.. i was talkng to michael (the german tech na nagaaus ng robot namin).. sa sobrang tense nahirapan ako magenglish.. natagalog ko tuloi.. ahaehe.. halip na ako mag-nose bleed xa nag-nose -bleed// bwahahaha.. nakakatawa tlga.. 

another thing.. im just hapi ksi bukod sa madaming good looking guys dun.. im just hapi ksi prang naglalaro at ngaaral ulit ako.. bukod sa madaming skulmates.. puro kaage ko pa.. enjoy tlga.. i could laugh out loud while working.. i am me.. nakakatuwa lang tlga.. i lost myself once but today im bak in my being me.. magulo.. masungit.. always inlove sa love.. hitad.. mabait. mabait.. mabait.. huwaw.. ok ah..