fieldtrip

wah.. everyone is textng me.. lahat excited.. lahat atat na atat.. pati aq tuloi na aatat.. grabe nmn.. di nga ako nagtrancient pra makatulog ng maaus.. un pla ganun din.. hai.. i know we’ll be enjoying this.. sna nga.. khit ilan smin d makakasama for somw reason.. sna mging ok lhat ng bgay.. hahahaha

survivor?

hehehe.. ang tagal na since i visited this site.. xmpre.. buzy.. buzy kaka.. R.O.. <runonline> hehehe.. nweiz.. i juz wanna tell evryone na im very much hapi at this moment.. bkit?? ksi prang ang light ng feeling q ngaun.. prang nabawasan ang burdens q.. nanganak na sis q.. we hav a princess n sa haus.. ok n ung bunso namin.. napagicpan n nya mga bagay bagy sa mundo.. c mami ok na din.. i can see n ala n xa masyado burden and it feel so good tlga.. prang ala n  rin ako burden.. after a few months na halos wasted, pressured, and tiredness.. i feel maganda tlga.. i may say na i survive all those hassles.. hehehe

a simple gudbye..

august 13.. yesterdays was my lolas bday.. the day before yesterday was the day she died.. yes.. my lola died last friday.. ya.. maybe sam will say na im making drama again.. sam will say na "diba yun ung pinagdadasal u noon pa??" yes quite right.. i have been praying that.. maybe because i can see na shes so tired of her life na rin.. i can see na her children but not all namn never cares for her.. they never help her.. poor lola.. my heart was touch when my father cried to me before he left telling me na pag ala na xa ala na magaalaga kay lola.. and true.. the last tym i saw her alive was three days before our title defense.. she was crying to me.. asking if i cud feed her.. and i did.. after that she told me na.. wag daw ako magkakacpon.. my heart was crashd and i didnt feel na i was crying na pla.. tapos.. fridayafternun.. my sister txtd me na she died na nga..

no one seems to be sad when i went there.. xcept my lolo.. i told him na i m hapi for her ksi tapos na paghihirap nya.. then i feel like crying.. pro d ako umiyak.. y?? kasi ayoko makita nla ung nararamdaman q..

for lola.. i know na d u nababasa ito.. i may not be close to you but i want everyone to know na ilan lng kming nagtetreasure sau.. now na ur resting in peace na.. wag mu hihigitin paa ko ha.. i juz wanna say na thank you for bringing my father..

tita ninang

what can i say im as hapi as my sister when she gave birth early this morning.. and its a healthy baby girl.. im very thankful na ok naman xa.. 

nga pla.. kaya tita ninang title nito ksi tita na ninang p q.. nakakatuwa nga eh.. i admire my sister for being brave.. my mom for being so supportive and ofcourse the bravest.. si meng.. as charming as her xempre.. at aq.. ang walang kamatayang kj ky meng.. dhil reyna daw aq ng sungit.. dinaig q pa daw ang magmemenopause.. 

nwei.. juz dropping by to say how hapi i am.. hehehe

p.s.

p.s… post cript???.. project study.. next week is the week.. the week we all prayed na d dumting ksi almost all of us eh la pa title.. hay.. kkanervou.. tlagaang maalapit na nga kami gumaraduate.. mas paplpit ng paplapit sa katpusan.. mas mahirap.. you want to focus on everything but samtimes.. your head juz want to stop.. naalala q tuloi nung nagaaaral aq ng pwersys.. i wnted to study pa kaso.. sabi ng utak q matulog na q.. what did i do?? edi ntulog.. iba na tlga ngaun ksi nagaaraal n q.. minsan lng aq maging ganito cmula ng ngcollege aq.. infernes.. hindi lng aq.. almost everyone.. i never saw them study before.. pro ngaun.. aral tlg..sbgay.. onti nlang.. onti nlng pro klngan pang magdagdag ng super duper extra effort.. my powersys.. my machine desyn.. d pa kasama microP, ie, ung mg plates p namin..lalo na ps.. hay.. kakaloka..
cguro sa knila.. ksi mtgal na q luka.. hehehe

its me..

eto na naman aq.. katatapos lang ng two hour pangya q.. hay.. I enjoyed playing with that two strangers.. iyon yung masarap pag d mu kilala ung tao eh.. you can be you.. the really you.. hay..

I juz accomplished my project.. I juz had an awful exam
yesterday.. why?? Panu ba naman ang dali nung exam bokya aq.. kakahiya tlg..

cguro kulng lang tlga aq sa silay.. o pgod lng tlga aq.. I went to the hospital yesterday.. pinunthan q kpatid q.. iniwan kz xa ng ermat q ksi my inaasikasong d nmn dpat asikasuhin.. hay nku.. I pity her kso d q dapat ipakita s knya yun ksi shes getting her strength skin.. how can I show her that.. i shud be strong for her..

I juz email my best friend and I cant believe im starting to
tell her all bout what happened to me the past three.. four months of my lyf..

all the hearthaches <kasama na luvlyf dun>.. and I know she’ll cry with me.. hehe.. ang hirap tlga kung yung mga taong nakakakilala ng lubusan sau eh malayo.. you cant find tym pra magkita man lng kau.. un ngang malapit lang kau.. di parin magtagpo ang landas nyo ksi masydong busy.. sbi q nga ky par lst
week.. distance or even less communication helps you to mend broken hart eh.. very much effective sa akin ung ganun.. kay erpat.. I never tok to him like the way I tok to him before
after wat happen.. cguro ngaun I kip in touch wid him to let him know n despite of what happen he’s still my dad.. I still love him.. pro iba tlga kpag ung trust ung nawala.. ung kay “toot” naman.. well wat can I say.. effective tlga eh.. mejo im over him na.. mejo kasi.. hehe pagnakikita q xa.. mejo kinikilig aq
eh.. 

hehehe ang kati..

life.. oh.. life

hay naku buhay nga nmn.. life.. d ko lam kun bkit nagtatype aq ditto.. ang gusto q lang namn eh makapagpalipas ng oras.. sa halip na mag-aral eto aq nag-iinternet.. relaxing?? Cguro.. nagtatangal lang aq ng pressure sa katawan q.. I dnt know but I have thid nervous and pressure na nararamdaman.. hindi q masasabi na pressured aq sa design ksi magagawa q naman un.. titiyagain q.. I mayb pressured ksi aalis na c tatay sa 20.. and he’ll be leaving me with a lot pf responsibilities.. it not that I don’t like responsibilities.. im juz afraid na I can’t do all of it.. nasa  sa konti kong pagpapabaya.. xmpre mabibigo aq.. ang ikinatatakot q eh madisappoint q.. hindi lang cla bka pati sarili q.. ewan q ba.. thinking of all the responsibilities I have.. parang pag nasurpass q lahat un dais q pa c DARNA.. pero sabi nga nung isang kanta.. “hindi aq c darna.. aq ay tao rin na my damdamin at marunong masaktan..” corny noh.. alam ko ung kanta.. pero totoo naman eh.. lahat umaasa skin.. nakakasakit ng ulo sa pagiicp.. hindi na nga gumagana ung motto q na let problem promlem me.. I hope makayanan q lahat toh.. grabe..

hay naku buhay nga namn.. life.. d ko lam kun bkit nagtatype aq dito.. ang gusto q lang namn eh makapagpalipas ng oras.. sa halip na mag-aral eto aq nag-iinternet.. relaxing?? Cguro.. nagtatangal lang aq ng pressure sa katawan q.. I dnt know but I have thid nervous and pressure na nararamdaman.. hindi q masasabi na pressured aq sa design ksi magagawa q naman un.. titiyagain q.. I mayb pressured ksi aalis na c tatay sa 20.. and he’ll be leaving me with a lot pf responsibilities.. it not that I don’t like responsibilities.. im juz afraid na I can’t do all of it.. nasa  sa konti kong pagpapabaya.. xmpre mabibigo aq.. ang ikinatatakot q eh madisappoint q.. hindi lang cla bka pati sarili q.. ewan q ba.. thinking of all the responsibilities I have.. parang pag nasurpass q lahat un dais q pa c DARNA.. pero sabi nga nung isang kanta.. “hindi aq c darna.. aq ay tao rin na my damdamin at marunong masaktan..” corny noh.. alam ko ung kanta.. pero totoo naman eh.. lahat umaasa skin.. nakakasakit ng ulo sa pagiicp.. hindi na nga gumagana ung motto q na let problem promlem me.. I hope makayanana q lahat toh.. grabe.

hehehe

I juz turned 21 last june 28 and I am wondering kung naging mabuti ba aqng anak, kapatid, estudyante at kaibigan.. hehehe 

Masasabi qng 60/40 aq bilang isang anak.. 60 percent na pasaway at 40 percent na masunurin but I cud say na I am still a gud daughter khit napaka pasaway q kasi ok naman ang takbo ng buhay q.. I know wat is wrong and ryt.. I know my priorities.. hindi naman aq nagpapabaya khit minsan tinatamad aq.. hindi pla minsan.. madalas na tinatamad aq.. never naman aq nagpapasakit ng ulo nla.. bulsa lang.. ganun tlga.. kapag nag-aaral.. 

Kapatid?? Ayan jan q masasabi na ok aqng ate.. mejo kunsintidora.. but I never forget to remind my sisters na lahat ng dapat gawing desisyon eh dapat ipagiicpang mabuti.. I always support them and show my care by all our okryan.. I always do that..ksi I am not the showy type eh.. I am sweet kapag tinatarayan, sinusupladahan q cla.. and that’s my character.. I never reveal what I really feels eh.. ita always the opposite eh.. 

Estudyante.. hehehe.. tamad aq.. I know that.. pro khit tamad aq I always make sure na I beat the deadline <ui dalawa design q ngaun kaya BAWAL ANG TATAMADTAMAD>.. I study din naman.. kapag mag-e-exam na.. hehehe.. 

Kaibigan.. ewan q.. pro tru frend daw aq.. 

Well ngaung 21 na aq.. I have to start my lyf different from all the bad habits I have lalo na at ang goal q ngaun ay mas maging successful.. I want my lyf to be stable for my family.. I know I can achieve all those with the help of God and myself.. and also all my inspiration..

hari ng sablay

after a long jogging kaninang morning sa grand stand<on diet kuno aq eh>.. bkit hari ng sablay ang tile ng blog q tonight??? Well ito ung kanta ngaun dito sa comshop eh.. 

 

hai naku.. im coming back nga.. coming back to all my drama evrytime im opening this page.. tama ba un???

 

the lenten had past ng parang ordinaryong araw lang sakin.. and this is the first time na nangyari un na ala tlga aqng ginawa.. no Visita Iglesia.. no station of the cross.. no fasting<fast eating pa ata ginawa q>ala tlga aqng ginawa kundi magbasa.. hindi ng bible nor pasyong mahal.. kundi  ng mga romantic pocketbooks.. kaya nagiging idealistic aq pagdating sa lovelyf q.. becoz im dreaming of a perfect luvstory na alam q namang never na mangyayari tulad ng nababasa q.. i may say i cud have a perfect luv story kun matatagpuan q na un true luv q.. and for now i can say that CEDC <thats his initials i hope u cud keep that secret incase na makilala u na xa>, is juz a gud friend.. i luv him.. no.. rather i loved him?? bkit my question marks? hindi ganun kabilis at hindi ganun kadaling piliting tanggalin o alisin ung nararamdaman mo sa isang tao.. ang sakin lang ksi.. pinagisipan ko mabuti kung anu nga ba.. kung mahal q b tlga xa.. baka nararamdaman q lang na ganun hindi pla..  andun ung confusions eh.. sa tingin q.. im loving him as a friend ngaun.. maybe becoz i realize na iyon tlga or what.. o bka im still in denial ksi ayaw q xa mahalin inspite of what my heart is tryin to tell me.. hindi q alam ksi naguguluhan din aq pro i juz know na he will always be special.. as special as ever.. cguro hindi man maging kasing kilig to the bones ang luvly ko.. khit na maraming beses qng buuin ang broken heart q.. i know samone is out there looking for me the way im looking for him.. wag lang sna xa matagalan.. bka mainip aq.. lalo p nung nalaman q how butz luv me.. kung gaano nya ipinagsigawan how much he luvs me.. eh hindi q parin narinig.. azar db?? nainip kasi aq kaya aun.. lalo p[ang lumala luvlyf q.. kla q magkakaisa na noon.. ang nangyari.. zero prin.. i juz hope na maging hapi ending luv story q.. i know i shud shed tears pro ayoq.. i dnt to be hurt by the one i love ksi lagi nalng ganun eh.. sawa na aq.. bka dumating nlng ung tym na matakot na tlga aqng magmahal.. at bka pagdumating ung tym na un eh saka pa q mahalin nun.. mas azar un.. kasi id be very willling to open my heart and willing to be hurt again.. 

ang gulo q noh..

hai

hay grabe the week that was!!! it was so tensefull as in nakakatense… i thot babagsak aq ng machines pro hindi pla.. grabe.. hai.. 

after that cnabi q na agad kay mami ever na ala aq bagsak and thats for her.. pwamis.. lahat ng ginagawa q for her tlga.. kasi she’s doing everything for us din eh.. d tulad nung isa.. eiw xa.. maging bitter ba?! 

kahit natalo aq sa pustahan na hindi aq nagsasalita ng isang araw aus lang.. ang sakin lang naman is to prove them na i can be quiet noh.. azar lang tlga ung ibang pipol na super judgemental.. aminado aq na i cant control myself not to speak.. wat can i do thats one of my otulet pra mailabas sama ng loob ko.. i dont want pipol see me crying.. kaya nga gladies eh prang gladiest.. from the rootword na glad meaning hapi.. i know naman na not all the time eh masaya ang buhay pro thats how i want my lyf.. kaya nga khit madame prob.. khit gusto q na umiyak.. im proud of myself kasi i still manage to smile.. i still manage to make my lecheng lyf.. a beautiful lyf by mking myself and ader pipol hapi.. kung natutuwa nga sila.. i maybe iritting samtime.. pro i know my limitations.. when to stop namn talking.. 

i am touch nga last time ksi i didnt expect n sa dinadami kong friends… i have few of them na nakakakilala skin.. and my heart was crush wen i found out na ung isang taong itinuturing qng friend eh iba ang pagkakakilala sin.. cguro ayoqng ipakita s lahat yung totoong aq ksi its for them to find out.. 

landi q noh?? ang tanong ganun ba tlga aq?

what’s the essense…

whats the essense of being inluv?? malay.. i still dnt know.. basta ang alam q.. its so hard knowing you love samone and pretending na frend lang turing mu habang secretly umaasa ka na he’ll wake up one morning realizing he’s inluv with you.. 

i juz know na if you rili luv samone you shud be hapi for him kahit alm you sa sarili mu na masakit for you.. martir effect ba..

yun tipong alam mu na masasaktan ka na pro hala go for the gold for him.. you’ll do anything.. any favor.. juz to see him hapi.. kahit labag sa kalooban mu.. gagawin mu yon ng buong puso.. kamartir ba?? 

hay.. sana crush nlang turing mu pwedeng pwede sabihin.. tulad nung ginawa ni andiano.. at mhy.. sabihin bang crush q c ian.. at cnabi pa mismo kay ian yun ha.. grabe.. super kinilig pa aq.. ipinakilala pa aq.. aus lang un kasi una.. dejins naman kami close nun.. tsaka crush lang tlga ksi lagi xa nakasmile.. unlike kay toot.. close na kmi.. dejins q pa tlga xa gusto..  talaga naman..

tiyak lolokohin nanaman aq ni sr hollman.. hehehe.. aus lang basta alam q malapit na nya malaman kung cno c toot pro d q parin sasabihin kung cno.. il juz wait na mahalata nya kung cno.. hehe basta sir kung mahalata nyo na.. ibulong nyo sakin ha.. ill tell you naman eh.. sa lahat ksi ng nakakaalam.. hinulaan nla.. and they never expected na xa un.. hehehe.. 

what’s the essense of this??? malay!

its summer time

yes its summer time… tapos na halos lahat ng exams.. thank God pasado naman.. isa nlng ang malaking tanong.. machines.. papasa kaya aq dun..kahit anung aral kasi ang gawin q.. ala tlga.. ilang puyat na ang ginawa q dun… ala tlga.. azar.. sana pumasa.. pero tulad last yir.. il be spending my summer sa skull.. ok lang mas madame na kmi ngaun.. sayang nga lang kasi dejins na q pupunta baguio tulad last yir.. la na gala.. aral mode na muna.. tsaka silay mode…

exicited na nga aq.. kasi.. grabe.. next skul yir fif yir na kme.. yehey.. khit d sure na gagraduate.. i know kung sama sama kami masusurpass namin yun.. hehehe.. that’s the essense.. of having friends.. hehehe..

re-collecting myself

last friday, nagkaron ng recollection sa school.. hindi tlga kami dapat ang magrere-collect pro masyadong buzy ung mga higher years kaya kmi ung nagrecollect.. inferness i enjoyed the seminar.. madaming bagay ang nag-flashback sakin… lahat ng ups and downs ko.. and i found out na im strong.. na khit iyakin ako.. kahit duwag aq.. i surpass all the trials God has given me.. sbi q nga the things that kept me fighting through all that is my family.. all my friends na tlga namang hindi aq iniwan.. inihahatid pa aq hanggang sakayan ng bus.. and the faith i have kay God na kahit kailan eh d aq pababayaan..

and that recollection makes me feel good about myself.. i realized na khit madami aqng problem.. i still manage to be hapi and to make samone hapi.. and thats my life… making samone hapi bcoz of me.. i never thot that sam of them are thankful meeting me.. well dapat lang im that unique tlga.. ala clang mkikitang pasaway na katulad q..

yeah ryt..

i really dnt know kung anung isusulat q dito.. sabi q nga kay lexi.. my blog serves as a journal.. un naman tlga eh.. but im hapi posting all my opinion… sentiments.. and wat ever chenez i want to write.. im hapi kasi napopost q lhat ng gusto qng sabihin.. hindi aq napapagod.. chika na nga ako ng chika maghapon.. xmpre.. not all chika is about me eh.. sbi nga ni ate eda.. mysterious daw aq.. im so madaldal but only few knows kun sino tlga aq.. only few knows my real story .. pang magpakailan man nga un eh.. 

natatawa nga aq pagtinatanong aq ni sir hollman kung cno c toot eh.. kagaling tlga nun.. mukhang alam nyang malapit lang sakin c toot.. napagicpan nyang lagi kaming magkasama.. well i know he’s reading this.. malapit nga xa sa skin sir and i want you to know na kahit anung tanong nyo i wont tell you kasi.. shyness aq.. hehehe..

im juz hapi writing and writng here..

letting go

letting go is the hardest thing to do.. you don’t know where and when to start.. there would come a time na ur in doubt and try asking urself if you really have to let go..

aq.. i think its tym na.. to let go of the feeling i kept for about a year na rin.. i have to let go of the feeling na dapat matagal q na ginawa ksi sa simula plang aq lang ang nasasaktan.. why do i always hurt myself loving someone hu can’t love me back.. and why cant i love the one hu loves me..

i think i have to stop loving him na kasi nahuhurt lang aq.. i have to admit i was expecting samting at first pro habang tumatagal.. mas nakikilala q xa i know i have nothing to expect except friendship.. and im hapi being his friend kso dumating na ata aq dun sa point na sawa na aq.. sawa na aqng maging friend kasi feeling  q inaabuso na o sobrang bait q lang.. o sobrang tanga lng tlga aq.. ewan q..

bye bye na toot..

forbidden love

forbidden love.. taray ng title noh.. bigay pa ni ener yan.. mejo nagiisip nga aq ng isusulat dito sa blog q.. kinda ala aq sa mood kc kagagaling q lang sa sakit.. natalo purefoods.. mejo tatpusin q din ung design.. nadiscareer pa lovelyf q..

yes tama nabasa nyo nadiscareer.. as in sa lahat ng ayaw q kay toot dito na ata aq super na-turn-off.. i didn’t know na his this bastos.. i hate him.. everytime na naiisip q lhat nung ginawa at ginagawa nya.. is so rude grabe.. mahal q lang tlga kya tanggap q pro grabe tlga.. everytime na naiicp q ung bagay na un.. i find myself hating him.. 

cguro nga ito na ung cmula upang itigil na itong kahibangang ito.. kahibangan.. oo kahibangan nga ang tawag q s feelings q sa kanya.. grabe tlga.. for me kasi what i feel for him is really forbidden.. y? kasi his my friend.. ayaw q mafall sa isang kaibigan kasi i find it nakakahinayang eh.. its like loosing everything eh.. ewan q ba.. ang gulo q..

pro sabi nila masarap lhat ng bawal and its true.. loving him really makes me happy.. un tipong ingat na ingat kang mahalata.. na baka sa pagkukwento mo bigla mong masabing "mahal kita" with matching "’coz ur my frend eh..".. un tipong masaya kna makakwentuhan u lng xa.. makatx u lng xa… kikiligin ka pa nga pag nagtx ng kakilig kilig na kowt eh.. na filing mo pra sa’yo pro hindi.. hindi.. hindi.. at kahit kailan eh never na magiging sau.. ina-assume u lng na pra sau.. sabagay it feels good naman tlga eh.. pra lang frequency na pag di given sa problem ina-assume na natin na 60Hz.. pro kahit anung assume u ang lalabas at lalabas eh di u makukuha ung problem.. how sad.. 

lagi nalang ba aqng sad evrytime na gagawa aq ng blog.. sbi nga ni tin "i juz have to think of a hapi thot and i can fly.." well.. im a hapi person in many aspect except lovelyf kaya i know i can fly ang problema.. i still can’t overweight kasi aq eh.. hehehe..

dba.. its so easy thinking of a hapi thot for me ksi madame aq nun.. ui always cherish evryday of my lyf and living lyk it is my last day..

i always thak God for giving me everyday of my lyf meaningful.. khit d me masyado hapi sa lovelyf i know im still bless with my family and friends.. i know He’ll give the best for me.. kun nakita q n xa.. and d q xa napancin.. babalik un.. kun d pa.. il meet him soon..

mejo napapahaba nanaman ang pagkakatype q.. prang alang gagawing design.. lagot aq tyak ky partner..

my post sentiments

feb 15, nandito ako ngaun sa my computer shop sa tabi ng skul..

i woke up around quarter to six this morning considered late from the five am routine ko…  aq galing ng date kagabi kasi una sa lahat d aq ng date… dun lang aq sa bhauz namin.. nakahiga.. nag-iisip.. naiinggit… muntik p nga aq umiyak eh..

panu ba naman ala akong makakasama… this is the loneliest valentine id ever celebrated..d pla aq nagcelebrate.. dumaan lang… ewan q ba.. dati hindi naman.. i am enjoying celerating feb 14 for the past twenty years of my life.. i am enjoying it like the lovers dating HHWWPsSP <holding hands while walking, pa-sway sway pa!> pero iba this years..

cguro nga mararamdaman ko ung pagiging alone and cold this day.. bkit kamo.. lhat ng kasama q sa bahay my date.. c ina my dawg… c jenry my daleng… c chewpot este chewpaw my cheezyhoney… c gels… aun kadate ang computer kagabi d p xa pede eh bata p kz… c cardzbaby inihatid c monti… c diegz my ate kay… c cloyd aun my kadate din… aq??? c denyish.. bkit kamo?? ksi c deyish iniwan ng kanyang minamahal kung klan p valentines natural aq kasama nya.. pinananood nya aq kun panu makipagdate sa tracing paper.. oo.. tama nabasa nyo.. tracing paper nga ang totoong kadate q kagabi.. eh anu naman kaya gagawin kung magsisimiento aq kagabi.. atleast my nagawa me kahit pa inaasar ako ni cloyd na d maganda un ginagawa q… <kesa naman magmukmok..>

naalala q tuloy c toot… kahit di nya man lang aq naalalang batiin ng hapi valentines.. pinaligaya prin nya aq… in so many ways lalo na pag ala me sa mud.. he’ll do the super corny jokes ever na tlga namang bentang benta skin… iba tlga xa eh…i know n baka my kadate xa kagabi… sana maging masaya xa…

haay… badtrip tlga i never thot id be typing all my sentiment today… its juz not ryt… ive been celebrating valentines without a date except for my mom and some close frends all my lyf bkit ngaun prang im alone… naalala q tuloy ung kantang someboby ng depeche mode na nirevive ni jinky ,na kinanta fave song q na b4 i let you go, … bagay na bagay tlga un kantang un sakin lalo na ung part na "To anyone’s strings I’m carefully trying to steer clear Of those things
But when I’m asleep I want somebody Who will put their arms around me And kiss me tenderly…"

of all this years, im very satisfied being single pro bkit ngaun im looking for this someone who will make me feel na im special.. na im being loved…

haaaay…

haaaaaaaaay…

2 days to go valentines na.. ilang valentines day pa kaya ang dadan bgo aq magcelebr8 nun… xmpre wid a partner ha… haaaay….
i always celebr8 valentines envying my frends.. well not totally envying mejo lng… how i wish i wud watch a concert or juz walk samwer sa… luneta?… baywalk pra mas sosyal… wid samone… sabagay khit na may dumating  hnding hindi q rin namn mapapancn kz nga itong puo q eh nakalaan na kay toooot… na ewan q manhid tlga… sbi nga ni rhina kitang kitang mahal q ung tao eh….. well ganun tlga buhay.. ul meet sam1 na mamahalin mo pro d k nya mamahalin… d way u love him… but im not malungqt bout it… kz istill hav a lot of friends na alam q mahal n mahal aq…  mahal din naman cguro aq ni toooot kso as a frends nga lang pro hapi parin aq kasi atleast andun un  word n mhal… khit gustuhin q pang magsenti ngaun d na pede… i have to finish pa un design kakahiya kz ky sir hollman e…  <galing kz ni idol eh mahirap na…> till d next sentiment day ha….

ala lang

feb 1…

cmula ng araw ng mga puso… halos lhat excited sa valentines day… my mga kilala nga aq aatend pa luvapalooza eh… ewan q lang ha… lhat ng kilala q masaya… c bdet mga hapi ngaun e… panu my luvlyf… c lexi… aun pang-anim na bf na… kinda afraid nga aq eh… daig n daig aq ng bakla… six-zero n q… xmpre aq un zero.. pro aus lng un… ang mahalaga naman skin eh… masaya lhat… d naman aq sad.. d din aq lonely… at lalong d aq alone… masaya nga lyf q e… laging makulay buhay q… luvluf lang hindi… i always try to enjoy wat lyf brings me eh… kun hindi pra sakin ang isang bagay… ill do my best pra makuha un… <except lang c tut, his alredy taken… taken for granted ng taong luv nya, kung aq nlng sna…>

kanta un ah…

mahal q b tlga xa?

kung hei fat choi sa lahat ng makakabasa, january 29, chinese new year, everyones celebrating exept three pipol i know. un dalawa kaibigan q un isa aq… xmpre cnu pb edi aq… aq.. aq.. akin namn ito eh…
katatapos q lang magbadminton kalaro q c jaque, mejo nakakapagod pero aus lang kc mejo nawala tense q… tense??? oo.. tense aq pag–iicp sa assignment ni sr bague at tense aq kc hindi q alam kun magseselos o matutuwa aq… basted ata c tut… mejo nalilito narin aq sa feelings q kc naanjan na naaawa aq sa kanya, gusto q hapi xa xmpre wid the other gurl noh… he’ll never be hapi wid me im juz u know a frend to depend on… a frend hu listen sa lhat ng katangahan at kabobohan nya… a frend na all out ears na nakikinig sa kanya… sabi nga ni bdet lakas nun skin… even wid my own hapiness kya q isacrifice… basta masaya xa…
madami aqng bagay na ayaw sa kanya… kahit nga mukha nun ayaw kung makita e… ayaw q din sa ugali nya… ayaw q sa principyo ng buhay nya… pro bkit araw araw xa hinahanap hanap q…. mahal q b tlga xa???

NBSB

NBSB… no boyfriend since birth… hindi aq nahihiyang sabihin na member aq nun…
anung magagawa q alang magkamali, ala rin aqng mapagkamalan…
maiinluv lang naman aq, dun pa sa taong ayaw q, pro wag ka mahal na mahal q…
kung mababasa tyak toh ni dog, sasabihin nun ang corny q nanaman, wat can i do… aq un… 

sa dinami dami b naman ng tao bkit ba nmn aq nainluv sa taong ewan… ewan q kung anu ang gusto sa buhay… ewan q sa kanya… khit aq nahihirapan ng idescribe xa e.. 

hindi q nga alam kung naluluha aq o matutuwa kc daig p me ni lexi, lima na nagiging boyfriend nya and take note ha puro cuteness ung mga guy ever…
pro okei lng… patience is a virtue… ika nga namin sa tong its… hindi naman lhat ng bagay nadadaan sa pagmamadali… im not searching kc hinding hindi aq makakikita… kc cguro nakakita na me… aq lng ang hindi nya nkikita…
ill juz hav to wait na dumating un taong para skin… bkit hindi… bagets p naman aq… eiw…

kaya ngaun im still proud to say na no boyfrend since birth parin aq…

i have to go na kc icningit q lang tlga paggawa nito, bka d me matapos s paggawa ng asignment ky sr bague…