Gising!

Meron pa kayang katulad mu Mamuro.. 

a man who will love a meatball head? na kahit ikaw ang reyna ng sablay.. eh mamahalin ka padin nya no matter what.. na everytime you need a knight in shining armour eh dadating at dadating sya.. na sa tuwing nanganganib kana eh dadating sya para iligtas ka.. iligtas ka hindi lang sa mga nakakatakot na mga aswang pwo sa lahat ng bagay.. un tipong iniwan ka ng mundo.. tipong you need help ksi feeling mu no one is there for you..

a man who will do anything just to see your smile.. na makita ka lang nya masaya ay masaya na din sya.. tipong he will give you anything in this world just to wipe the tears in your eyes..

a man who is willing to give his life for you..

na kahit mag-away kau.. the day wont end na magkaaway kau ksi he will understand you.. kahit sobrang immature mu..kahit sobrang childish mu..khit sobrang arti mu.. khit ikaw na pinakamasamang babae sa mundo.. kahit ikaw na pinaka walang kwentang tao sa mundo.. anjan sya para tangapapin ka kung sino ka..

haaay..Kaso ang wierd.. bilang mu lng ata mga lalaking ganun..

at mahirap din maniwala sa isang malaking kathang isip dahil baka tumandang dalaga naman ako.. hehehe..

dahil sa Tora Dora.. kahit panunulat ko nagulo.. :)

Just finished watching ToraDora this morning. nakakatuwa ang story. sarap alalahanin ang buhay when you were younger. you 'll never know if its puppy love, crush lang ba or what so ever na basta nakita mu ung taong un.. pede kana mamatay.. hahahaha.

nakakainis itong si rommel, ganda ganda ng mood ko ipinapaalala pa sakin ang mga hindi kagandahang mga pangyayari sa buhay ko.. kulet kulet.. kung naka move-on n daw ako adik..

back to my story.. asan na ba ako? talagang patuloy ang pangiistorbo ni rommel sakin eh..

yeah i already remembered.. ang sarap maging bata.. ksi ang iniisip mu lang is ung papasok ka ng school.. you want to look pretty kasi you know na you'll be seeing you're crush sa paborito nyang tambayan.. hehehe.. na you'll try to be friends with him para feeling close talaga.. then, uuwe ka.. na before ka umuwe sisilip kapa sa court ksi bka makita mu pa sya ulet.. and you'll finish the day daydreaming lang.. na you're going out.. na he'll ask you to be he's date.. na he'll ask you if he can dance with you.. na kapag nagsayaw kau sa party, tomorrow or maybe next week kau na.. na you think of the days na he'll be saving you from those CAT officers na magpapahirap sau every training day.. na you'll think na he would be the only guy na iintindi sau if you have problems, na aamukin nya lahat ng mangaaway sau.. na sya ung unang taong magsesermon sau kapag naulanan ka, o pag nalipasan ka ng gutom, o kapag nagpatuyo ka ng pawis saa damit mo. na kapag my camping sa school, sya ung taong on the go if you need a pale of water pampaligo, na kelangan nyo magpadingas ng apoy for the bonfire.. at kahit walang music eh sya ang unang taong magsasayaw sau..

that is when you're younger.. pwo habang tmatanda kana, prang unti unti nang nababago pananaw mu pagdating sa crush.. dati ganyan ang tingin mu sa crush.. nguan ksi kahit sino pde mung maging crush.. basta gwapo, macho at mabango crush m na..

kung dati dati pagpasok lang sa school ang iniisip mu ngaun, you need to go to work, earn for yorself and for your family. day dream of meeting the guy that will truly makes you happy.

you will not just need a guy who will dance with you in te bonfire or in the a party. ang hinahanap muna is is a man who will keep dancing kahit pareho n kau nakasaklay..

ang hinahanap mu na ngaun is a man who will scold you everytime you're being immature, and he thinks that you as woman is being selfish and self centered. na magagalit sya evrytime you act like no one understand you and love you kahit anjan pa sya.

ngaun, ang hinahanap mu is hindi lang magsesave sau from the super pag torture ng CAT officers mu but a man who will save you from sadness, wilderness at kung anik anik pa. sya yung taong hindi lang sasagip sau, but aagapay sau sa pagharap sa problema na ibinigay sau ng kapalaran..

Kung nung kabataan mu eh naniniwala ka pa sa mga sumpaan nyo ng ka MU mu na you'll be together forever.. na after school magiging kau tlga.. hehhee.. ngaun, ang hinahanap mu lang is ang lalaking tutupad sa vows sau infront of the altar to be yours forever.

hehehe.. masarap isipin na na you are loved inspite of the distance. na you keep holdong into something regardless kung ganu sya kalayo. kung ganu sya katagal mawawala. basta ang mahala is that you love him and he loves you.

mas masarpa din isipin na, ang taong iniintay mu, ang taong pinapangarap mu is iniisip ka din at naghihintay din sya sa pagbabalik mu.

meron pa kayang ganun?

sign na ba etich?

Ganda ng title ko, i already right this one already. ni hindi ko n nga naalala yung original draft. nag hang si PC ang aun nawala ng lubusan ang isinulat ko. ang haa p naman nya. eto, ill start all over again (parang kanta lang).

Its September 5, 2009. 10:56 in the evening. i am trying to re-write the one i made 10 minutes ago.

Today is Pups Wedding, i unsually woke up at aroung 6 am today for my preparation for the matrimony. Sabi ko nga kanina, i didn’t bother to make myself superb ksi its not my day naman. i just let my self be simple and happy ksi i want pups wedding to be happy also. Kahit hindi n ako makahinga at makagalaw with my gown okay lang. i would just walk for 2 to 3 mins in the isle but still the focus is not with me but with the bride.

With God blessings, kahit binabagyo ang wedding ni Pups eh natapos nman sya ng matiwasay. I got the bouquet (sana tama spelling ko nito ksi second time ko n sya sinulat :)), the bride gave me those flowers, wala gusto kumuha kahit ako ayaw kong tanggapin. But she gave me the flowers eh. i have no choice but to take that. Ngaun ako maniniwala na hindi talaga totoo na kung sino ang taong makasalo ng bouquet (kung mali ang spellling sori)  eh sya ung next bride. hello! its not possible na ill be the next bride kasi wala nga ako possible groom eh.. pwo malay mu naman, this is the sign from God na ill find Mr. Right (kung meron) this year. Well malay mu naman diba? but i am not hoping. Definition nga ng Love nahihirapan ako eh.. masabi ko pa na im inlove..

From MMK18 (18 years n ksi sila) story kanina, i’ve learned na love will come talaga at the right time and place basta hanada kana. sabi nga diba? huwag kang magmadali dahil dadating din si prince charming mu.

prince charming na gigising sau sa mahabang pagkakatulog, hahalik sau pra matanggal ang sumpa ng witch, magpapalaya sau sa pagkakabilanggo, tatanggapin ka inspite of yor differences, who will see you transparently, magsasayaw sau sa time na nalulungkot ka, prince charming na always ready na hanapin ka san mang sulok ng mundo in times na gusto mu magtago sa lahat and kahit anung klaseng tago mu eh makikita at makikita ka padin nya, prinsipe na handang iligtas ka sa kapahamakan, samahan ka sa kalungkutan and live with you happily ever after.

Happily ever afteR? totoo p kaya ito? meron p kya true love? matutupad padin kaya ang vow na sinasabi nila sa mga wedding matrimonies? tipong “till death do us part”? totoo kayang kapag ayan na ang true love, makakarinig ka ng music? tipong may kuryente? sparks ba? Malay ko, naranasan ko n ba yang ganyan?

True love? iyon ba yung kapag handa ka ibigay ang lahat sa taong mahal mu (very generous minsan natatanga ka na),true love ba kapag you will love evrything about this person, his whole being? kapag handa ka magsacrifice? handa ka sa lahat ng hurt na mararamdaman mu? true love ba kapag you’re willing to wait kahit walang hinihintay? true love ba kapag you would still wants to be with him even you look so stupid caring for him? true love ba yun na just seeing him hapy with someone else would also make you happy?

mahal mu na ba yung tao, kapg handa ka makinig sa kanya kahit paulit ulit lang ang kwento nya? na kung ilang beses nya kinuwento ung story na un eh iyon din ang beses na nasasaktan ka? na sa halip ikaw ikinukwento nya eh ibang tao pla? (bitter)..

mahal mu na ba sya kapag tumunog fon mu eh sya ung iniisip mu na sana sya ung nag teks? tumatawag? nag message sau sa FB? nag Buzz sau sa ym?

mahal mu n ba ang tao kapag before mu close ang eyes mu sa gabi at pagmulat mu sa umaga, sya ang iniisip mu?

mahal mu ba ang tao na khit simpleng thank you and take care eh kinikilig kana?

mahal mu na ba sya kapag everytime malungkot ka eh sya ang naiisip mu na sasagip sa kalungkutan mu?

pagibig na ba ang ung pangalan palang nya buo na araw mu? tipong marinig mu lang ung name nya, nakakalimutan mu na pagod, lungkot at stress ng buhay meorn ka. tipong pde ka nang di kumain dahil name palang busog kana. panu p kaya kapag nakita mu na.

pag-ibig o hallucination? o bka naman inspiration, aspiration, admiration, perspition, respiration, presipitation at kung anu anung tion pa.. hehehehe..

i would never know that, i never had a love. i never know love. o bka love na hindi ko pa alam n love pla un. i never felt na i have been loved in the other way around.

hahaha.. natatawa ako.. parang this is a sign n im looking and im ready to be found na.. sana may naghahanap nga sakin.. hehehe..

Masarap din naman ksi yung pakiramdam na nagcecelbrate ng monsary, anniversary, at kung anik anik pa. masarap din yung pakiramdam na hindi na ako aalis mag-isa, maglalakad s aluneta o san mang park ng mag-isa,masarap din naman yung my ka-holding hands ka na. tipong when the whole world left you eh my someone n anjan to give comfort. tipong pag-valentines day,hindi na ako magkkukulong sa bahay. isa na din siguro ako sa mga taong lalabas pra mag-date. hahaha..

naisip ko tuloy, ilan n ba ang pinagpas ko at pinalagpas ako? hahaha..

hindi din naman sila madami dahil hinid naman ako kagandahan.. pwo sa mga experience kong yun, eto ako, parang hopeless romantic. well hindi ako naghahanap, hindi din ako naghihintay, hindi rin naman ako desperada na kahit sino nlang basta ma-experience ko lang un..

i would still want my ending to be happily ever after.. sana meron pang ganun..

Nag-iisa Ka lang..

Its 4:23 in the morning.. i am about to sleep.. i just finished uploading some christian songs in facebook..

well i just realized..

that in times of trouble... in times that you feel you’re alone.. in times that doubt is in the air.. that you are very unsure of everything that is happening in your life..

when you felt that you hold all the problem in the world, that the people behind you left you or maybe they just don’t understand you.. if you felt that all eyes stares at you.. that they are all waiting for you to commit mistakes..

when you think that there is no friend beside you.. that no one cares about you.. if you’re sad.. if you’re happy.. if you’re hurt.. if you have lots of issues with you’re life..

well..  God is really good (all the time!).. because He is always there.. He would always make sure that you are okay and that you are enjoying the life given to us.. that when you feel that you’re in darkness.. in all those bad times that we encounter.. He would make sure the we will find light.. and you would feel that all burdens in life that you though you have will just gone away.. in just a wink of an eye.. if you would just pray..

they said that singing is like praying twice..

i was singing the songs (my all tie fave!) and i am just happy and relieve that He took away all the burdens in my heart and mind..

Nag-iisa Ka lang talaga Lord! Salamat!