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When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how
long you will be around.

When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at all
fine.

When a GIRL stares at you she is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest .. she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL says ' I love you ' .. she means it.

When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' .... no one in this world can miss you more than
that.

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person ....

Find a guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

who calls you back when you hang up on him.

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who ... kisses
your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he
is to have you.

Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

Bow..

-unknown

New Moon

Just finished watching New Moon.. kahit ulit-ulitin ko ito okay na okay talaga... though i would still prefer what is on the book rather than movie.. i guess i'll just wait for the next book.. mas madami kakilig kiligan dun..

May naalala tuloy ako.. parang.. kasi parang tamang tama ang pagkakaulit ng movie na ito eh.. parang ung status message ko..

Sometimes, the things we thought that could make us happy.. that could make our like better.. are the things that gives a hell on our lives.. and it also work on the other way around like we are to choose the wrong things over the right things just to make us happy..

hahaha.. parang ung story, Edward (my lab) choose to leave Bella because he thought it was right, then later on aun.. sila padin.. wait natin Eclipse mas maganda un.. :D.. going back to my thought of happiness..

of chosing what is to be happy and what is just to feel better just to say your happy.. gulo noh.. pwo ganun talaga.. happiness is always there.. jan lang yan sa tabi-tabi.. tau ang naghahanap nun.. at minsan sa sobrang paghahanap.. di p natin nakikita ksi nga we overlook things din..

if we are looking for someone to make us happy, i think the best way is just follow our heart.. because our heart sees what our mind can't.. and our hearts know how to be happy.. even if it is in the wrong way ba.. ganun talaga.. minsan kung anu bawal yun pa masarap..

if we thought that a person could make us happy because we thought that we will be happy again.. maybe.. we need to think again.. kasi if we want to be taken cared of.. dapat pa-confine nlng tau sa home for the aged.. or sa mental.. dun madami magaalaga sa 'tin.. hehehe..

well well well.. as what Bella did, she choose what her heart wants.. and where she finds happiness..

Have You Ever Again?

It's 2:25 in the morning of October 11. just cant sleep because of these things in my mind.. crying over the same thing.. tanga ko talaga..

i really don't know how stupid i am crying on things i shouldn't. why does this tears just starts to fall every time i remember you.. why does i start crying every time i remember you.. i thought i was over... i thought i could be happy with my life loving other man.. but why does jealousy comes in times i am not expecting it..

i want to get over you but why does this heart can't forget.. why do i need to bare the pain if you never knew.. why you? of all people.. why can i just find someone who would make me feel that i am being loved.. that i am important.. that i have the right to be happy..

i hope.. i could have this sign that i am really over you.. i just want to be happy..

i hope the next tears fell from my eyes would be tears of happiness.. happiness that i am over you..

Guardian Vampire

Just finished the fifth book of the twilight series.. mejo bitin but infernes.. it good din.. looking back from book one.. from the first day Edward meets Bella.. well balik ung kilig moments.. nakakatuwa nga eh.. parang mas nakilala ko kung sino si Edward behind his looks..

He consider himself as guardian vampire.. sa halip na guardian angel eh guardian vampire.. nakakatuwa talaga.. sabagay.. i just thought that we can't fall in love with our guardian angel.. eh ang guardian vampire okay na okay.. ksi its very unusual cguro din na magkaroon ng vampire na magproprotect sau..

well.. iba talaga ang charisma ni guardian vampire.. sana my ganun pa.. in his old fasioned way, he dazzles everyone.. grabe.. very sweet.. though impatient and short tempered.. pwo he manage to understand everything.. Na kahit mahirap intindihan.. maiintindihan nya.. He knows what is right and what is wrong.. he lives by norms yet if still knows how to enjoy life.. he knows when, where and how to be happy.. he doesn't care if against all odds ang eksena basta for him if it will make him happy.. go for the gold lang sya..

he has everything, good looks, wealth, intelligence, happy family and many other things yet he manage to be humble.. and to make sure that he doesn't step on anyone around him.. he has this unconditional love though sometime selfish pwo in the end love is what matters to him..

for me his very ideal.. ideal ika nga sa eleks namin nung college.. if its ideal its 0.. kapag silicon 0.7 at germanium ay 0.3.. san ko nakuha un.. hehehe.. he's very ideal na i know na he is not existing.. hala.. i would want to have a guardian vampire din like Bella.. but wla namang ganun sa totoong buhay.. need to wake up from fantasy.. from all the fiction stories that i have been reading ksi in reality walang guardian vampire.. walang Edward Cullen who would save you in any harm.. who would give his love for you.. ung ready to catch you when you fall.. hindi lang fall in love pwo fall as in laglag talaga.. hehehe..

grabe.. napapasulat na naman ako sa sobrang kilig kay Edward.. kasi naman.. kalilig-kilig naman talaga sya eh.. in all aspect.. sabagay gang kilig lang talaga ako sa kanya eh.. he's not real i know.. cguro.. i would know if totoo if i'll meet my own guardian vampire..

ung matatawag kong akin.. hehehe.. di ko na agawan pa si bella.. kanya na di Edward.. all i want is a person like edward who would be there proteting you.. well di naman ako ka-prote-protekta.. sa laking ito eh.. all i want is to feel I'm secured with this person.. secured that no one will harm me.. no one will try to hurt me and if someone (kung meron mang nagagalit sakin) would try to help me.. left me behind maybe.. he would be there protecting me and comforting me..

Di ko alam kung sobrang tapang ko.. and wala sila makita weakness ko.. well totoo naman.. pwo syempre lahat ng super hero my weakness.. kung si superman nga kryptonite eh.. ako? hmm.. secret.. bka gamitin pa ng mga detractors ko un laban sakin.. tamang gento lng ako.. chill..

O sya.. mejo itong panunulat eh eh nawawalan na ng sense.. kaya ako'y magpapaalam na pansamantala.. hahanap ako ng guardian vampire muna..

Book 5 of the Twilight Series

Walang Message

it's the 21st day of November, i am as usual, browsing the net.

i am quite excited on watching New Moon.. kso prang I'm doubting ksi i don't have someone to watch it with.. pwo I'm still looking ng makakasama.. hehehe..

nweiz, its been how many weeks na maraming nangyari sakin.. daming lesson learned sa buhay ko na i thought di ko malalaman.. una.. real friends will always be there for you talaga no matter what happens.. regardless if nagkikita kayo araw araw o taon bago kau magkita.. friends will always be friends.. i just realized how lucky i am having good and understanding friends.. i may not be as good as them but i am trying my best to be there for them.. God is really the best in giving me people around me.. some may not be so good but still teaches me lessons to be patient.. to be understanding.. and to throw all the grudges in life.. kasi i wont be happy kapag ganun.. life is too short kaya para magmukmok..

i remember the other day.. i was on my way going to work.. i am riding a tricycle when a man just collapse in the main road.. and luckily the driver quickly avoided the man's direction or else he might be dead right now.. grabe.. i was thinking if i am ready to die.. pwo parang di pa.. kasi i haven't showed my family how i love them.. to my friends na hindi ko masyado na nabibigyan ng pansin.. i am never good to them yet they treasure me as one of their best friends.. at di pa ako nag kaka boyfriend noh.. dapat na feel ko din yun.. ngaun ko na realize na i should treasure everyday of my life.. specially the times that i have to spend it to them.. alam ko madami ako utang sa knila.. to my family na super wala n ako time with them..

what else can i do..

Would

it's 1:34 in te morning of October 22. and i can't barely sleep.

i have been thinking of many things..

where will i be after 2 years.. or 3 years maybe.. will i have my own house? will i have a new job maybe? will i get into a romantic relationship? will i buy my own car? will i get back to school and take my masters? will i leave the country? will i still be alive by that time? that one is scary.. i would still want to see myself having my own family. i would still want to experience having someone to hold my hands. i would still want to see my future children graduated from college having a good job and building their own family.

or would i still be single (scary!), will i stay in this kind of life of being easy-go-lucky thing.. that i would just go on with the flow forgetting all the dreams i have.. the dreams i have left behind..

Cguro nga at this time i should be thinking of those kind of things. i am getting old and it seems that i am still the gladies i know long time ago.. the gladies who wants to be free.. the gladies who wants to go anywhere in the world just exploring.. that she doesn't care what life would be in the future..

yeah.. i am not getting any younger and i still act like i am a 16 year old teenager who would fall her knees every time she sees her crush.. that i could still walk in the hallway hopping.. hahaha.. i am still that immature.. gosh.. can't blame i can't be as successful as the others.. i lack of maturity in everything i make.. i am passionate (in my own perception) but it seems i am still lacking of this certain flavor. certain season..

i am happy and proud and contented on what i have right now.. but it seems i am looking for something or maybe someone that would make me a better me.. that would help me become mature enough in handling things..

Gising!

Meron pa kayang katulad mu Mamuro.. 

a man who will love a meatball head? na kahit ikaw ang reyna ng sablay.. eh mamahalin ka padin nya no matter what.. na everytime you need a knight in shining armour eh dadating at dadating sya.. na sa tuwing nanganganib kana eh dadating sya para iligtas ka.. iligtas ka hindi lang sa mga nakakatakot na mga aswang pwo sa lahat ng bagay.. un tipong iniwan ka ng mundo.. tipong you need help ksi feeling mu no one is there for you..

a man who will do anything just to see your smile.. na makita ka lang nya masaya ay masaya na din sya.. tipong he will give you anything in this world just to wipe the tears in your eyes..

a man who is willing to give his life for you..

na kahit mag-away kau.. the day wont end na magkaaway kau ksi he will understand you.. kahit sobrang immature mu..kahit sobrang childish mu..khit sobrang arti mu.. khit ikaw na pinakamasamang babae sa mundo.. kahit ikaw na pinaka walang kwentang tao sa mundo.. anjan sya para tangapapin ka kung sino ka..

haaay..Kaso ang wierd.. bilang mu lng ata mga lalaking ganun..

at mahirap din maniwala sa isang malaking kathang isip dahil baka tumandang dalaga naman ako.. hehehe..

dahil sa Tora Dora.. kahit panunulat ko nagulo.. :)

Just finished watching ToraDora this morning. nakakatuwa ang story. sarap alalahanin ang buhay when you were younger. you 'll never know if its puppy love, crush lang ba or what so ever na basta nakita mu ung taong un.. pede kana mamatay.. hahahaha.

nakakainis itong si rommel, ganda ganda ng mood ko ipinapaalala pa sakin ang mga hindi kagandahang mga pangyayari sa buhay ko.. kulet kulet.. kung naka move-on n daw ako adik..

back to my story.. asan na ba ako? talagang patuloy ang pangiistorbo ni rommel sakin eh..

yeah i already remembered.. ang sarap maging bata.. ksi ang iniisip mu lang is ung papasok ka ng school.. you want to look pretty kasi you know na you'll be seeing you're crush sa paborito nyang tambayan.. hehehe.. na you'll try to be friends with him para feeling close talaga.. then, uuwe ka.. na before ka umuwe sisilip kapa sa court ksi bka makita mu pa sya ulet.. and you'll finish the day daydreaming lang.. na you're going out.. na he'll ask you to be he's date.. na he'll ask you if he can dance with you.. na kapag nagsayaw kau sa party, tomorrow or maybe next week kau na.. na you think of the days na he'll be saving you from those CAT officers na magpapahirap sau every training day.. na you'll think na he would be the only guy na iintindi sau if you have problems, na aamukin nya lahat ng mangaaway sau.. na sya ung unang taong magsesermon sau kapag naulanan ka, o pag nalipasan ka ng gutom, o kapag nagpatuyo ka ng pawis saa damit mo. na kapag my camping sa school, sya ung taong on the go if you need a pale of water pampaligo, na kelangan nyo magpadingas ng apoy for the bonfire.. at kahit walang music eh sya ang unang taong magsasayaw sau..

that is when you're younger.. pwo habang tmatanda kana, prang unti unti nang nababago pananaw mu pagdating sa crush.. dati ganyan ang tingin mu sa crush.. nguan ksi kahit sino pde mung maging crush.. basta gwapo, macho at mabango crush m na..

kung dati dati pagpasok lang sa school ang iniisip mu ngaun, you need to go to work, earn for yorself and for your family. day dream of meeting the guy that will truly makes you happy.

you will not just need a guy who will dance with you in te bonfire or in the a party. ang hinahanap muna is is a man who will keep dancing kahit pareho n kau nakasaklay..

ang hinahanap mu na ngaun is a man who will scold you everytime you're being immature, and he thinks that you as woman is being selfish and self centered. na magagalit sya evrytime you act like no one understand you and love you kahit anjan pa sya.

ngaun, ang hinahanap mu is hindi lang magsesave sau from the super pag torture ng CAT officers mu but a man who will save you from sadness, wilderness at kung anik anik pa. sya yung taong hindi lang sasagip sau, but aagapay sau sa pagharap sa problema na ibinigay sau ng kapalaran..

Kung nung kabataan mu eh naniniwala ka pa sa mga sumpaan nyo ng ka MU mu na you'll be together forever.. na after school magiging kau tlga.. hehhee.. ngaun, ang hinahanap mu lang is ang lalaking tutupad sa vows sau infront of the altar to be yours forever.

hehehe.. masarap isipin na na you are loved inspite of the distance. na you keep holdong into something regardless kung ganu sya kalayo. kung ganu sya katagal mawawala. basta ang mahala is that you love him and he loves you.

mas masarpa din isipin na, ang taong iniintay mu, ang taong pinapangarap mu is iniisip ka din at naghihintay din sya sa pagbabalik mu.

meron pa kayang ganun?

sign na ba etich?

Ganda ng title ko, i already right this one already. ni hindi ko n nga naalala yung original draft. nag hang si PC ang aun nawala ng lubusan ang isinulat ko. ang haa p naman nya. eto, ill start all over again (parang kanta lang).

Its September 5, 2009. 10:56 in the evening. i am trying to re-write the one i made 10 minutes ago.

Today is Pups Wedding, i unsually woke up at aroung 6 am today for my preparation for the matrimony. Sabi ko nga kanina, i didn’t bother to make myself superb ksi its not my day naman. i just let my self be simple and happy ksi i want pups wedding to be happy also. Kahit hindi n ako makahinga at makagalaw with my gown okay lang. i would just walk for 2 to 3 mins in the isle but still the focus is not with me but with the bride.

With God blessings, kahit binabagyo ang wedding ni Pups eh natapos nman sya ng matiwasay. I got the bouquet (sana tama spelling ko nito ksi second time ko n sya sinulat :)), the bride gave me those flowers, wala gusto kumuha kahit ako ayaw kong tanggapin. But she gave me the flowers eh. i have no choice but to take that. Ngaun ako maniniwala na hindi talaga totoo na kung sino ang taong makasalo ng bouquet (kung mali ang spellling sori)  eh sya ung next bride. hello! its not possible na ill be the next bride kasi wala nga ako possible groom eh.. pwo malay mu naman, this is the sign from God na ill find Mr. Right (kung meron) this year. Well malay mu naman diba? but i am not hoping. Definition nga ng Love nahihirapan ako eh.. masabi ko pa na im inlove..

From MMK18 (18 years n ksi sila) story kanina, i’ve learned na love will come talaga at the right time and place basta hanada kana. sabi nga diba? huwag kang magmadali dahil dadating din si prince charming mu.

prince charming na gigising sau sa mahabang pagkakatulog, hahalik sau pra matanggal ang sumpa ng witch, magpapalaya sau sa pagkakabilanggo, tatanggapin ka inspite of yor differences, who will see you transparently, magsasayaw sau sa time na nalulungkot ka, prince charming na always ready na hanapin ka san mang sulok ng mundo in times na gusto mu magtago sa lahat and kahit anung klaseng tago mu eh makikita at makikita ka padin nya, prinsipe na handang iligtas ka sa kapahamakan, samahan ka sa kalungkutan and live with you happily ever after.

Happily ever afteR? totoo p kaya ito? meron p kya true love? matutupad padin kaya ang vow na sinasabi nila sa mga wedding matrimonies? tipong “till death do us part”? totoo kayang kapag ayan na ang true love, makakarinig ka ng music? tipong may kuryente? sparks ba? Malay ko, naranasan ko n ba yang ganyan?

True love? iyon ba yung kapag handa ka ibigay ang lahat sa taong mahal mu (very generous minsan natatanga ka na),true love ba kapag you will love evrything about this person, his whole being? kapag handa ka magsacrifice? handa ka sa lahat ng hurt na mararamdaman mu? true love ba kapag you’re willing to wait kahit walang hinihintay? true love ba kapag you would still wants to be with him even you look so stupid caring for him? true love ba yun na just seeing him hapy with someone else would also make you happy?

mahal mu na ba yung tao, kapg handa ka makinig sa kanya kahit paulit ulit lang ang kwento nya? na kung ilang beses nya kinuwento ung story na un eh iyon din ang beses na nasasaktan ka? na sa halip ikaw ikinukwento nya eh ibang tao pla? (bitter)..

mahal mu na ba sya kapag tumunog fon mu eh sya ung iniisip mu na sana sya ung nag teks? tumatawag? nag message sau sa FB? nag Buzz sau sa ym?

mahal mu n ba ang tao kapag before mu close ang eyes mu sa gabi at pagmulat mu sa umaga, sya ang iniisip mu?

mahal mu ba ang tao na khit simpleng thank you and take care eh kinikilig kana?

mahal mu na ba sya kapag everytime malungkot ka eh sya ang naiisip mu na sasagip sa kalungkutan mu?

pagibig na ba ang ung pangalan palang nya buo na araw mu? tipong marinig mu lang ung name nya, nakakalimutan mu na pagod, lungkot at stress ng buhay meorn ka. tipong pde ka nang di kumain dahil name palang busog kana. panu p kaya kapag nakita mu na.

pag-ibig o hallucination? o bka naman inspiration, aspiration, admiration, perspition, respiration, presipitation at kung anu anung tion pa.. hehehehe..

i would never know that, i never had a love. i never know love. o bka love na hindi ko pa alam n love pla un. i never felt na i have been loved in the other way around.

hahaha.. natatawa ako.. parang this is a sign n im looking and im ready to be found na.. sana may naghahanap nga sakin.. hehehe..

Masarap din naman ksi yung pakiramdam na nagcecelbrate ng monsary, anniversary, at kung anik anik pa. masarap din yung pakiramdam na hindi na ako aalis mag-isa, maglalakad s aluneta o san mang park ng mag-isa,masarap din naman yung my ka-holding hands ka na. tipong when the whole world left you eh my someone n anjan to give comfort. tipong pag-valentines day,hindi na ako magkkukulong sa bahay. isa na din siguro ako sa mga taong lalabas pra mag-date. hahaha..

naisip ko tuloy, ilan n ba ang pinagpas ko at pinalagpas ako? hahaha..

hindi din naman sila madami dahil hinid naman ako kagandahan.. pwo sa mga experience kong yun, eto ako, parang hopeless romantic. well hindi ako naghahanap, hindi din ako naghihintay, hindi rin naman ako desperada na kahit sino nlang basta ma-experience ko lang un..

i would still want my ending to be happily ever after.. sana meron pang ganun..

Nag-iisa Ka lang..

Its 4:23 in the morning.. i am about to sleep.. i just finished uploading some christian songs in facebook..

well i just realized..

that in times of trouble... in times that you feel you’re alone.. in times that doubt is in the air.. that you are very unsure of everything that is happening in your life..

when you felt that you hold all the problem in the world, that the people behind you left you or maybe they just don’t understand you.. if you felt that all eyes stares at you.. that they are all waiting for you to commit mistakes..

when you think that there is no friend beside you.. that no one cares about you.. if you’re sad.. if you’re happy.. if you’re hurt.. if you have lots of issues with you’re life..

well..  God is really good (all the time!).. because He is always there.. He would always make sure that you are okay and that you are enjoying the life given to us.. that when you feel that you’re in darkness.. in all those bad times that we encounter.. He would make sure the we will find light.. and you would feel that all burdens in life that you though you have will just gone away.. in just a wink of an eye.. if you would just pray..

they said that singing is like praying twice..

i was singing the songs (my all tie fave!) and i am just happy and relieve that He took away all the burdens in my heart and mind..

Nag-iisa Ka lang talaga Lord! Salamat!

assignment

Today is Sunday.. August 30, 2009. eto. as usual.. nakaharap ako sa pc ngaun.. nagpapalipas ng oras.. nangingisda.. nagtatanim.. hehehe.. papaantok.. bka makatulog na sa dami ng iniisip ko..

God is great talaga.. He never give everything sau.. He would make sure na meron kang assignment.. na dapat mong gawin.. assignment na ikaw lang ang pde sumagot.. assignment na hindi ka pwede mangopya.. na dapat matuto ka from that assignment…

minsan gusto mu na sabihin sa Kanya na you can’t finish the task.. o kya naman mandadaya ka.. you’ll ask someone else to do the assignment.. o minsan talagang makapal ka.. magtatanung k n sa Kanya ng may sumbat.. o minsan talaga mapapabuntong hininga k na lng ng malalim..

tipong parang hanggang core na ng earth ang pagkakabuntong hininga mu.. sa sobrang hirap ng assignment na binigay Nya.. o kya naman pilit mung gagawin at tatapusin kahit labag sa kalooban mu.. tipong pra lang masabi na may assignment..

nakakatuwa tlga noh? tayo na tinutulungan ni Lord, tayo pa gumagawa ng way pra tanggihan sya.. tau na ung tinutulungan Nya to make sure we are happy and we enjoy our stay here on earth.. tau pa din ang nagpapahirap sa sarili natin.. tau padin ang gumagawa ng way to make our life misreable..

o bka naman kya ganun is because din sa mga tao sa paligid natin? minsan nga naitanung ko n sa sarili ko.. are they my inspiration tlga? worth it ba lahat ng sacrifices ko for them? do they care about me? or are they thinking of themselves?

we’ll madaya na kung madaya but i hope God will give me the guidance i am looking right now.. strong arms for me to hold on.. especially if i really can’t stand na.. a heart full of love and understanding.. hehehe..

Sana sa assignment na binigay nya sakin ngaun.. sana.. maipasa ko ito sa kanya.. ng walang daya at hindi napilitan..

Emotera

this morning.. i was listening to carpenters and bread songs.. when i remember this song i use to sing when i was a kid. what’s up.. well i really can’t remember who sang that song but i would always remember the song itself..

the song goes like this:

Twenty-five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination
And I realized quickly when I knew I should
That the world was made up of this brotherhood of man
For whatever that means
And so I cry sometimes
When I’m lying in bed
Just to get it all out
What’s in my head
And I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning
And I step outside
And I take a deep breath and I get real high
And I scream at the top of my lungs
What’s going on?
And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what’s going on?
ooh, ooh ooh
and I try, oh my god do I try
I try all the time, in this institution
And I pray, oh my god do I pray
I pray every single day
For a revolution
And so I cry sometimes
When I’m lying in bed
Just to get it all out
What’s in my head
And I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning
And I step outside
And I take a deep breath and I get real high
And I scream at the top of my lungs
What’s going on?
And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what’s going on?
Twenty-five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination

well i am not yet twenty five years old.. but i just what the song says.. i am trying my best to get on the my own destination.. i want to be the best of who i am.. enjoying the things i have.. being successful in everything i do.. and being happy on what God has given me. i also need to be strong in facing all walks of life.. all the struggles that God may give me.. i should face them all with courage, strength, dignity and faith.

i should be strong enough to handle things that is very unusual for me for my family.. syempre.. number one priority lagi sila.. they are the only best thing i have.. syempre next na friendships ko dun..

haay.. i’ll do everything for them.. sana ganun din sila..

Buhay ng walang magawa..

i woke up at around 3pm today just to watch tora dora.. hehehe.. parang bata noh? Well yeah. i still love watching cartoons.. wala naman masama diba? It’s one way of making myself happy..

It’s Sunday and I should go to church di ba? But I’d prefer to go an early mass tomorrow.. Mas masarap kasi magsimba eh.. kakatamad this day.. i have nothing to do.. Home alone.. wala si ermat at erpat.. wala si bagets, wala lahat dito ako lang tao.. nagugutom na nga ako eh..  All we have is the Caldereta I cooked last night eh.. 

haay.. I just finish taking quizzes sa Facebook.. One of thebest quiz i had eh yung kung totoo akong TUPian.. Well I took that quiz 3 times.. andaya noh? Well feeling ko ksi kung sino ung gumawa nung quiz na un is not Stupident tlga.. hehehhe..

 Just realize I missed being in school.. ung tipong ang iisipin ko lang is baon ko for today, kung malelate ako sa klase ko, assignments ko na kokopyahin ko din naman eventually sa mga masisipag kong klasmeyts, kung san ko plano gumala that day at kung panu ako makakauwe ng maaga pra iwas traffic.

as i was answering that quiz, nag flashback lahat sakin, kung panu ako papasok ng umaga, tatambay sa ilalim ng puno puno dun.. kung panu ko matatapos ng mabilis ang assignment ko na kinokopya ko knowing i only have 30 mins left before ko ipasa ung assignments na un.. na dapat mabilis kong makopya na hindi ko magawa-gawa kasi dadating pa lahat ng mga siraulo mong kaklase pra bulihan ka.. hehehe.. nakakamiss din un eh.. na super sila magkukwentuhan na kahit gusto mo sumabat di ka makakasabat kasi kelangan mo matapos ung assignment mo.. 

naalala ko din ung mga time na kakain kme ng tanghalian ng sabay-sabay, kung hindi sa jeps, sa maans, sa penny’s, sa st paul’s, sa boybengs, sa pipoy’s, at syempre makakalimutan ko ba ang bolababs at kapampangan keni.. hehehe

ang bolababs na nagtitinda ng breaded porkchop at noodles na aabutin ka ng ten thousand years bago maluto.. ang kapampangan keni na always namin pinipilahan kahit ganu kaiinit at kasikip.. bawal tumambay ng matagal dun ksi madami pa kakain.. hehehe.. 

i also remember na kapag 4 to 5 hours ang vacant ko.. asahan n asa SM lang ako pra magpalamig.. minsan kapag my extra money ako.. nuod ng sine.. kapag wala ako pera.. SM lang.. tamang libot lang from ground floor gang fifth floor.. pahirap lang sa sarili.. hehehe..

tapos nung nag boarding house ako, every night na kakain sa yum-yum na kahit puro mantika sobrang sarap padin kumain dun.. hehehe.. na kapag napasarap kme ng kwentuhan ni Rina o khit tipong may puyatang nagaganap sa Bhauz aba, asahan n bibili p kame sa nag iisang 24Hrs na tindahan dun, kina Viva Laraza na hindi pdeng hindi namin makikita si Kuya na nakasuot ng puting short at puting sando.. hehehe.. araw-araw ksi un ang suot nya.. hehehe..

inaamin ko, i am never a good student.. hindi ako studious.. ewan ko ba kung bakit ganun.. hehehe.. cge.. paminsan minsan naman nag-aaral ako.. pwo kadalasan.. nagcocomputer ako.. mura lang ksi rent ng computer sa TUP, 10 to 15 Php ang rate nun.. hehehehe kya yakang kaya ng bulsa ko.. hehehe.. tapos.. kung di man ako nagcocomputer.. syempre nakikipag bulihan ako sa mga housemates.. kung hindi naman nila ako binubuli.. nakikipag tong-its sila skin, o kya naman BINGO at syempre ang hindi ko makalimut-kalimutang Bomberman.. na lagi pinagtutulungan si Dennish pra ma-out agad.. hehehe.. minsan ako din ganun ginagawa nila.. pwo mas madalas padin si dennish.. hehehe.. kamusta n nga kaya un?

ang pinaka-gusto ko ginagawa nung mga panahon na un? syempre pa ang walang kamatayang inuman session sa bhauz.. khit sino invited.. khit sino pde magpunta ang mahalaga imbitado.. my mga times din n nagluluto kme ng walang kamatayang pansit pag may bday ang isa o dalawa o kahit anu basta my ipagcecelbrate.. hehehe..

nakakatuwang isipin n lahat ng un eh puro comedy sa buhay ko na nagturo ng kung anik anik sa life ko.. natuto ako uminom, natuto ako makisama, natuto ak ng tumawa ng malakas, natutuhan ko na sila ang kaibigan n hinahanap ko, na we jive together, natuto ako magmahal (kelangan ba lagi my special mention na ganun, move on kna db?), natuto ako humarap sa problema sa buhay, to decide for myself, to deal on whatever na dumating sa buhay ko, to be strong and brave ksi alam kong may mga kaibigan akong andyan lagi to support me. kahit siraulo ung mga un kpag kelangan mu tlga ng kaibigan anjan sila.. that’s why i am proud of them..

Hindi naman lagi kme gimiks nung mga un.. syempre dumadating din ung time n mejo nagkakatampuhan.. pwo ang maganda dun.. we manage ourselves na magkabati at magkaaus at maging dahilan ng mas malalim na pagsasama..

hehehe.. ito pla nagagawa ko kapag wala ako magawa.. hehehe..

happy thoughts will make you fly

today is July 18, 2009. wala lang. i just went to the church today. nag moment.. hehehe.. mejo magulo ksi isip ko the past few day.. siguro ganun tlga kapag girl.. we have do many issues in life..

i just thought na.. i very lucky.. very in many aspect.. i may have some prob with family.. but it makes me stronger everyday.. it would always remind me that God is alwyas there for me..

right now.. im very happy.. im very happy that i can feel i can do anything in the world.. na im ready in everything.. sabi nga ni Peter Pan.. think of a happy thought then you can fly.. hehehehe.. regarless how heavy siguro ako.. i can still fly.. because right now.. regardless of my problems.. im happy.. ewan ko ba..

last day in Frankfurt

July 4, 2009 at Hotel Atlantic here in Frankfurt, Germany.

tonight is my last night here in this cold, lonely place. i am very excited to go home at the same time i also feel sad.

the excitement of seeing my family, friends and the place where i really belong gives me the happiness. i miss everything and everyone in the Philippines. Especially the food. More rice, more energy. hahaha.

the sadness i am feeling is because i just felt that this maybe the last time i will be here, but i hope not. in my two weeks of staying here in this place. a place for busy people (which is not me), for workaholic (well parang ako pero hindi halata), and for people who is building their dreams in this place, i jut felt that this is my second home. i would also miss many things, the quiet workplace which is very conducive to be more productive, to understand and analize your work. i would also miss the egg and bacon breakfast (just imagine, for two weeks i am eating eggs and bacon), i would miss the subway train that brings us to work and back to our hotel (na nung first time namin sumakay dun we are looking for some place where we could show the ticket, na we thought its free and bakitp namin klangan bumili). i would miss the lunch under the sun (kahit tirik n tirik ang araw). i would miss the dinner na laging sausage or mcdonalds. hahaha. well, this place have given me another meaning in life.

that you should live life according to your neccessity. live simple life and live life to the fullest. its both satisfying.

well hanggang sa muli Frankfurt ( nach Frankfurt wieder).

last day..

today, July 3, is my last day in the office. well actually  that was yesterday because, today we didn’t go in the office because we have our company event. CANOEING..

yeah, well since its summer here in Germany, the Pips here decided to go canoeing. well, i was nervous first because i didnt know what to do. and i thought mapapanis ang laway ko because eveyrone speaks in German and well, we know almost everyone but i think tey are snob. but earlier.. well i think im wrong because everyone is nice. haahaha. i enjoyed my first canoeing experience. though is very hot and tiring because you need to paddle. but i really enjoyed it. evryone seems enjoyed the event. hehehehe.

i hope maulet..

cge need to rest na.. masakit n kasukasuan ko.. hehehehe..

happy birthday?

its 8 pm here in frankfurt, im having my dinner. strawberry and water. hehehe.. its my birthday. i dont know if madami bumati sakin today. i dont have cellphone right now. hehehe..

well im sad at the same time happy.

sad kasi i missed my family. i woke up early today around 5am to talk to them. hindi ko napigilan umiyak. well i just missed them.

happy din nman ksi i celebrated my bday here. tho wala tlga celebration. hehehe. i and kuya allan went to Koln Germany today. we just walked thru the place. very nice place. we met some Filipina named pacita. wala lang. ngaun ko lang narealize na.. its nice seeing filipinos in other country. prang your home ba. hehehe.

well, overall nairaos ko naman ang isang araw n minsan lang sa isang taon dumating sakin ng wala kasama. hehehe..

pagbalik ko ng pinas. gimik tau huh.

einen Tag vor meinem Geburtstag (one day before my birthday)

its June 27, 2009 here in Frankfurt.. around 1:15 in the afternoon. its not sunny yet its not cold in here today..

i woke up lat this morning.. maybe because i really want to rest..

i just have my breakfast around 8 in the morning then afterwards, i went to the central station to check if i would find something interesting. i was searching last night some place to go here in frankfurt. well.. as what felix adviced us, we can go to the palm garden near our hotel. and we could check koln, germany. well, i just bought a ticket going there. its around 37 Euro. back and forth.

well that would be a good bday gift for myself. i will e accompanied by Kuya allan who is with me in this training. i hope i will enjoy this trip. this is once in a lifetime. i would really want to go in Paris, yet is so expensive.

i think i need to save more money before i go there. maybe i would have another chance in going here in frankfurt. well im hoping..

 in German:

seine 27 Juni 2009 hier in Frankfurt .. um 1.15 Uhr am Nachmittag. Es ist nicht sonnig noch nicht kalt in seiner heute hier ..

Ich wachte heute Morgen lat. .. vielleicht, weil ich wirklich zur Ruhe ..

Ich habe mir das Frühstück um 8 am Morgen danach dann, bin ich auf der Central Station zu überprüfen, wenn ich etwas Interessantes finden. Ich war letzte Nacht einige der Suche zu gehen hier in Frankfurt. gut .. als das, was Felix riet uns, wir können Sie auf der Palmengarten in der Nähe unseres Hotels. und wir können prüfen, Köln, Deutschland. Nun, ich nur ein Ticket gekauft wird es. rund 37 Euro. hin und her.

gut, dass wäre eine gute bday Geschenk für mich. Ich werde begleitet von e Kuya Allan, der mit mir in dieser Ausbildung. Ich hoffe, dass ich in den Genuss dieser Reise. Dies ist einmal im Leben. Ich würde wirklich wollen in Paris, aber ist so teuer.

Ich glaube, ich brauche mehr Geld zu sparen, bevor ich dorthin. vielleicht hätte ich noch eine Chance in sich hier in Frankfurt. Nun, ich hoffen

3rd day in frankfurt

today is june 23, 2009. its my third day here in frankfurt germany. and very usuall i woke up at around 530 in the morning. very unusual to me to wake up that early.. but what can i do? i am still adjusting my body clock from the time here.. gosh.. i really cant believe that they have longer days here.. its 9 pm right now.. with around 20 deg celcius.. ang lamig.. as per our receptonst today, later this evening we’ll be having a 13 deg C. i hope its warmer tomorrow.. i hate this kind of weather.. i have been thinking of many things.. i kinda hate it because its giving me pain.. hay.. so sasd being alone in a place not familiar.. in a place kung saan malamig na,, nakakalungkot pa..

haaay..

its been a long while..

its been a long while since i visit this site.. tapos di n din nakaka-upload ng pictures.. di na nakakapag updade sa mga friendster.. ni hindi na rin ako nakaka pag kwento.. sabagay.. may multiply na.. may tagged pa.. san pa ba hahanapin ko diba?

how long na ba since i post my last blog? cant remember na nga eh.. haayy..

marami n nagbago skin..

like? my perception in life? never magbabago un noh? friends m with? yeah.. a bit.. mas dumami and trusted friends.. im very happy i found all of them.. i am very thanknful that God always gives what the best for me..

anu p ba? yeah work? well as usual.. sunpower padin.. cguro nga when i ask God to give me a good place where i can show na okay naman ako.. He really listen.. im wrong when i thot na hindi..

when i felt i am very demoralize on the start of my job.. He gave me a better one.. i am happy because i’ve met good friends na prang family nadin.. i have kuya ron, kuya rey, pups, olan, jmai, ghael, mami jay, epie, mami owie, mama wenggay, pip and a whole lot more.. i am happy ive met them kasi their like family na din.. tpos ngaun.. i planned to be on a greener and they are one of the pipol who helped me.. prayed for me.. supported me and the pipol who trusted n kaya ko..

well ngaun.. malapit na.. malapit na ako makarating sa greener pasture na un? and i am very happy kasi.. everyone is happy for me.. i may lost friends.. kung meron.. but i never leave a friend.. a friend will always be a friend regardless of the gap.. ahehehe..

to my colleagues.. i mishu all.. sana matuloi n lakad natin.. mishu all.. to my new friends.. chill lang tau.. we will still see each other. maliit lang naman opis natin eh..