it's 1:34 in te morning of October 22. and i can't barely sleep.
i have been thinking of many things..
where will i be after 2 years.. or 3 years maybe.. will i have my own house? will i have a new job maybe? will i get into a romantic relationship? will i buy my own car? will i get back to school and take my masters? will i leave the country? will i still be alive by that time? that one is scary.. i would still want to see myself having my own family. i would still want to experience having someone to hold my hands. i would still want to see my future children graduated from college having a good job and building their own family.
or would i still be single (scary!), will i stay in this kind of life of being easy-go-lucky thing.. that i would just go on with the flow forgetting all the dreams i have.. the dreams i have left behind..
Cguro nga at this time i should be thinking of those kind of things. i am getting old and it seems that i am still the gladies i know long time ago.. the gladies who wants to be free.. the gladies who wants to go anywhere in the world just exploring.. that she doesn't care what life would be in the future..
yeah.. i am not getting any younger and i still act like i am a 16 year old teenager who would fall her knees every time she sees her crush.. that i could still walk in the hallway hopping.. hahaha.. i am still that immature.. gosh.. can't blame i can't be as successful as the others.. i lack of maturity in everything i make.. i am passionate (in my own perception) but it seems i am still lacking of this certain flavor. certain season..
i am happy and proud and contented on what i have right now.. but it seems i am looking for something or maybe someone that would make me a better me.. that would help me become mature enough in handling things..
