letting go

letting go is the hardest thing to do.. you don’t know where and when to start.. there would come a time na ur in doubt and try asking urself if you really have to let go..

aq.. i think its tym na.. to let go of the feeling i kept for about a year na rin.. i have to let go of the feeling na dapat matagal q na ginawa ksi sa simula plang aq lang ang nasasaktan.. why do i always hurt myself loving someone hu can’t love me back.. and why cant i love the one hu loves me..

i think i have to stop loving him na kasi nahuhurt lang aq.. i have to admit i was expecting samting at first pro habang tumatagal.. mas nakikilala q xa i know i have nothing to expect except friendship.. and im hapi being his friend kso dumating na ata aq dun sa point na sawa na aq.. sawa na aqng maging friend kasi feeling  q inaabuso na o sobrang bait q lang.. o sobrang tanga lng tlga aq.. ewan q..

bye bye na toot..

forbidden love

forbidden love.. taray ng title noh.. bigay pa ni ener yan.. mejo nagiisip nga aq ng isusulat dito sa blog q.. kinda ala aq sa mood kc kagagaling q lang sa sakit.. natalo purefoods.. mejo tatpusin q din ung design.. nadiscareer pa lovelyf q..

yes tama nabasa nyo nadiscareer.. as in sa lahat ng ayaw q kay toot dito na ata aq super na-turn-off.. i didn’t know na his this bastos.. i hate him.. everytime na naiisip q lhat nung ginawa at ginagawa nya.. is so rude grabe.. mahal q lang tlga kya tanggap q pro grabe tlga.. everytime na naiicp q ung bagay na un.. i find myself hating him.. 

cguro nga ito na ung cmula upang itigil na itong kahibangang ito.. kahibangan.. oo kahibangan nga ang tawag q s feelings q sa kanya.. grabe tlga.. for me kasi what i feel for him is really forbidden.. y? kasi his my friend.. ayaw q mafall sa isang kaibigan kasi i find it nakakahinayang eh.. its like loosing everything eh.. ewan q ba.. ang gulo q..

pro sabi nila masarap lhat ng bawal and its true.. loving him really makes me happy.. un tipong ingat na ingat kang mahalata.. na baka sa pagkukwento mo bigla mong masabing "mahal kita" with matching "’coz ur my frend eh..".. un tipong masaya kna makakwentuhan u lng xa.. makatx u lng xa… kikiligin ka pa nga pag nagtx ng kakilig kilig na kowt eh.. na filing mo pra sa’yo pro hindi.. hindi.. hindi.. at kahit kailan eh never na magiging sau.. ina-assume u lng na pra sau.. sabagay it feels good naman tlga eh.. pra lang frequency na pag di given sa problem ina-assume na natin na 60Hz.. pro kahit anung assume u ang lalabas at lalabas eh di u makukuha ung problem.. how sad.. 

lagi nalang ba aqng sad evrytime na gagawa aq ng blog.. sbi nga ni tin "i juz have to think of a hapi thot and i can fly.." well.. im a hapi person in many aspect except lovelyf kaya i know i can fly ang problema.. i still can’t overweight kasi aq eh.. hehehe..

dba.. its so easy thinking of a hapi thot for me ksi madame aq nun.. ui always cherish evryday of my lyf and living lyk it is my last day..

i always thak God for giving me everyday of my lyf meaningful.. khit d me masyado hapi sa lovelyf i know im still bless with my family and friends.. i know He’ll give the best for me.. kun nakita q n xa.. and d q xa napancin.. babalik un.. kun d pa.. il meet him soon..

mejo napapahaba nanaman ang pagkakatype q.. prang alang gagawing design.. lagot aq tyak ky partner..

my post sentiments

feb 15, nandito ako ngaun sa my computer shop sa tabi ng skul..

i woke up around quarter to six this morning considered late from the five am routine ko…  aq galing ng date kagabi kasi una sa lahat d aq ng date… dun lang aq sa bhauz namin.. nakahiga.. nag-iisip.. naiinggit… muntik p nga aq umiyak eh..

panu ba naman ala akong makakasama… this is the loneliest valentine id ever celebrated..d pla aq nagcelebrate.. dumaan lang… ewan q ba.. dati hindi naman.. i am enjoying celerating feb 14 for the past twenty years of my life.. i am enjoying it like the lovers dating HHWWPsSP <holding hands while walking, pa-sway sway pa!> pero iba this years..

cguro nga mararamdaman ko ung pagiging alone and cold this day.. bkit kamo.. lhat ng kasama q sa bahay my date.. c ina my dawg… c jenry my daleng… c chewpot este chewpaw my cheezyhoney… c gels… aun kadate ang computer kagabi d p xa pede eh bata p kz… c cardzbaby inihatid c monti… c diegz my ate kay… c cloyd aun my kadate din… aq??? c denyish.. bkit kamo?? ksi c deyish iniwan ng kanyang minamahal kung klan p valentines natural aq kasama nya.. pinananood nya aq kun panu makipagdate sa tracing paper.. oo.. tama nabasa nyo.. tracing paper nga ang totoong kadate q kagabi.. eh anu naman kaya gagawin kung magsisimiento aq kagabi.. atleast my nagawa me kahit pa inaasar ako ni cloyd na d maganda un ginagawa q… <kesa naman magmukmok..>

naalala q tuloy c toot… kahit di nya man lang aq naalalang batiin ng hapi valentines.. pinaligaya prin nya aq… in so many ways lalo na pag ala me sa mud.. he’ll do the super corny jokes ever na tlga namang bentang benta skin… iba tlga xa eh…i know n baka my kadate xa kagabi… sana maging masaya xa…

haay… badtrip tlga i never thot id be typing all my sentiment today… its juz not ryt… ive been celebrating valentines without a date except for my mom and some close frends all my lyf bkit ngaun prang im alone… naalala q tuloy ung kantang someboby ng depeche mode na nirevive ni jinky ,na kinanta fave song q na b4 i let you go, … bagay na bagay tlga un kantang un sakin lalo na ung part na "To anyone’s strings I’m carefully trying to steer clear Of those things
But when I’m asleep I want somebody Who will put their arms around me And kiss me tenderly…"

of all this years, im very satisfied being single pro bkit ngaun im looking for this someone who will make me feel na im special.. na im being loved…

haaaay…

haaaaaaaaay…

2 days to go valentines na.. ilang valentines day pa kaya ang dadan bgo aq magcelebr8 nun… xmpre wid a partner ha… haaaay….
i always celebr8 valentines envying my frends.. well not totally envying mejo lng… how i wish i wud watch a concert or juz walk samwer sa… luneta?… baywalk pra mas sosyal… wid samone… sabagay khit na may dumating  hnding hindi q rin namn mapapancn kz nga itong puo q eh nakalaan na kay toooot… na ewan q manhid tlga… sbi nga ni rhina kitang kitang mahal q ung tao eh….. well ganun tlga buhay.. ul meet sam1 na mamahalin mo pro d k nya mamahalin… d way u love him… but im not malungqt bout it… kz istill hav a lot of friends na alam q mahal n mahal aq…  mahal din naman cguro aq ni toooot kso as a frends nga lang pro hapi parin aq kasi atleast andun un  word n mhal… khit gustuhin q pang magsenti ngaun d na pede… i have to finish pa un design kakahiya kz ky sir hollman e…  <galing kz ni idol eh mahirap na…> till d next sentiment day ha….

ala lang

feb 1…

cmula ng araw ng mga puso… halos lhat excited sa valentines day… my mga kilala nga aq aatend pa luvapalooza eh… ewan q lang ha… lhat ng kilala q masaya… c bdet mga hapi ngaun e… panu my luvlyf… c lexi… aun pang-anim na bf na… kinda afraid nga aq eh… daig n daig aq ng bakla… six-zero n q… xmpre aq un zero.. pro aus lng un… ang mahalaga naman skin eh… masaya lhat… d naman aq sad.. d din aq lonely… at lalong d aq alone… masaya nga lyf q e… laging makulay buhay q… luvluf lang hindi… i always try to enjoy wat lyf brings me eh… kun hindi pra sakin ang isang bagay… ill do my best pra makuha un… <except lang c tut, his alredy taken… taken for granted ng taong luv nya, kung aq nlng sna…>

kanta un ah…